Amazed
Hey everyone! So far today has been a real good day. I went to bible study and church with Kristina. That went good...me and Kristina were sure we were gonna be the last people to show up, we were wrong. Church was very interesting today for me. Especially at the end when he was talking about how God sets a line for us that he doesn't want us to cross, and then when we do cross it, were that much closer to el diablo. He was talking about Ouijia Boards, horoscopes, witch craft, tarot cards, voodoo, levitation tricks, sances(sp) etc. Well that stuff I have experimented with. And I have had a catechism teacher warn me about the ouija board, but i didn't listen. I've stopped "playing" with it for over a year at least...but its still in my closet. And after Pastor Carlos got through talking about it, and how we consider it "playing", and yet its extremely dangerous to be that curious. And now I finally understand. The next bonfire, I plan on burning it. I decided that, that way no one will lay their hands on it again. And then theres horoscopes, wow thats a new one. I have horoscopes sent to my email e/day. I never knew they were bad....or are they only bad if you live your life based on them??? Witchcraft...I for the longest time was interested in it....I mean I never did any spells, but I did research it...like look it up in the library and stuff and joke around with it( me and my friends). I've tried Sances me and Kristina joke around with a voodoo doll we found at my cousins house (joked on each other) (by the way it didn't work or anything), and levitation tricks...man i have tried those so many times. My point is, the prayer he did for everybody who has ever stepped over that line that God doesnt' want us to cross, was very touching and very helpful to me. I won't ever mess with that stuff again...well I like reading the Horoscopes tho... so almost e/thing.
Kristina don't be afraid about the thing you wanna do. If it's what you want that go for it. Pastor Carlos will be happy, Jesus will be happy. Pastor Carlos may ask you questions about why you want to do what you want to do, well if you can't and are afraid to answer his questions, how are you gonna answer Gods when your at the white gates? Think about that. God'll be with you the whole way. I'll be there for you and e/1 else. I only wish I could take that next step with you...however I have issues at home that I have yet to address and take care of, before I can take that step.
I got to meet e/body today to...like Ben's brother and mother, and some guy that his name starts with a "J" i think and Pastor Carlos. I told him about my mom and my lil thing at home with growing up catholic. He just said to tell my mom, that as baptists, they still love Jesus to, it may be a slight different, but it all comes down to one thing, and that is that we ALL LOVE JESUS!
To all the people at The First Spanish Baptist Church: what I like most about the whole baptist religion, is that I can feel you guys caring about not only God but also about me. Like in my old church, I don't think anyone notices I have left, not even the priest. Only my mom knows. But see I feel if I left your guys church, you all would notice. And that is so important...and it keeps me going and makes hearing the word of god easier to understand and to want to hear. You all have such big hearts and I love you all. Thank you so much.
Thank you Jose for counseuling me and Kristina. Were really sorry we couldn't help you as much as you have helped us, but we try. You are truely blessed and you have really opened up my eyes. I enjoy being able to talk so openly to people my age about Jesus, this is only going to help me be more comfortable in spreading the word of the Lord. I have to take it step at a time though because it's all still so new. But I'm actually happy for once, and I can't wait to see what God has in store for my future.
Well I'm out....
Jose- this song is for you...what me and kristina were talking to you about last night...about your grandma and your feelings.
Quest Of Many Trails
Plus One
(Exodus)
If your tears want out then let them fall
They'll hit your cheek and then dissolve
You see nothing heals quite like time
It fills the gap between dreams and real life
So you give your pain a chance to run itself dry
Ahhhh....
Remeber the story without all the hurt
Hold on to the fruit and wash off the dirt
You see life is bitter sweet
And sweets the best part
You never rate your happy
Without sad on the chart
[Chorus]
Stars colliding against the dark
Of the night
You'll climb over the moon tonight
On your quest of many trails
Remember, will you remember
Who brought you here
Remember, will you remember your home
Remember, will you remember
[Chorus]
Stars colliding against the dark
Of the night
You'll climb over the moon tonight
On your quest of many trails