Empathy sucks today
Sometimes I hate being such an empathetic being. It gives me this great opportunity to relate to others, and to help go with them through their life’s struggles. To be able to connect with the people you truly care about on such a deeper level, I am thankful. But it’s when you’re constantly surrounded with negativity that this gift of being able to relate becomes so taxing. It’s not the greatest thing in the world to always feel like you’re experiencing or feeling what everyone else is going through. It doesn’t always help strengthen a situation. Sometimes it can make things worse. Today is one of those days. I’m stuck here at work and all I can feel is the crap of the world around me trying to unload itself on me. I’m sorry so-and-so is annoying you. I’m sorry that this person is showing up late to work and getting away with it because the higher ups allow it - you’re my manager, not the other way around. Deal with it.
It just starts a downward spiral. And since there’s a lull in the moment, I now get to focus on the crap that’s in my own world. Not exactly the way I want to spend my day. Tell the truth, I’d much rather have a good day. A fun day. Maybe I’m just griping because my holiday weekend is over and I have to go back to the sludge that is modern day work. All I know is I feel rather negative today and wish I didn’t. Guess it’s one of those trial by fire days and I’ll just have to endure it.