I'm excited.
I'm so excited about this weekend. It's going to be so good. After this weekend, i'm taking a break from Il Vicino..before i kill someone or myself. Working there so much has been so stressful recently. I haven't been clicking with people like i usually do. I have to take care of myself right now. I honestly don't know what that means though. What do i need to do to heal myself. I don't know...like Hank always says, "Cassie, you'll figure it out. You always do." I will.
Everything is always so OVERDRAMATIC. it's bullshit. Get over it.
I've been doing good so good with the Alex thing. The only reason is because i'm working so much, so whenever he sees me he takes advantage of it because it might be a while till we see each other...somehow some way we find a little time for each other everyday. I'm not going to be dependent on him to make me feel better, i am however going to depend on him for support. I need something strong to stand on while i get back on my feet. The CAREFREE Cassie, has way toooo many things to worry about, that's why she's gone. She's only around when the person that makes me feel like that is around...him. When i'm with him, i can stop worrying for an hour or so. The apartment and all of it's dirtiness and responsibilty makes me feel so down. It makes me worry almost every second while i'm there. I'm so poor right now, after lending people money for the past year, paying bills on my own.I haven't spent any money on pot for myself for at least a few months...i have saved no money. So don't ever believe that if you stop smoking pot, you'll save money....bah.
Well gots to go make the chedda.
P.S. I never meant to wear you down. Just pretend I'm not here, i appear only when bills are due.
Everything is always so OVERDRAMATIC. it's bullshit. Get over it.
I've been doing good so good with the Alex thing. The only reason is because i'm working so much, so whenever he sees me he takes advantage of it because it might be a while till we see each other...somehow some way we find a little time for each other everyday. I'm not going to be dependent on him to make me feel better, i am however going to depend on him for support. I need something strong to stand on while i get back on my feet. The CAREFREE Cassie, has way toooo many things to worry about, that's why she's gone. She's only around when the person that makes me feel like that is around...him. When i'm with him, i can stop worrying for an hour or so. The apartment and all of it's dirtiness and responsibilty makes me feel so down. It makes me worry almost every second while i'm there. I'm so poor right now, after lending people money for the past year, paying bills on my own.I haven't spent any money on pot for myself for at least a few months...i have saved no money. So don't ever believe that if you stop smoking pot, you'll save money....bah.
Well gots to go make the chedda.
P.S. I never meant to wear you down. Just pretend I'm not here, i appear only when bills are due.