Predictably

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Well, everyone esle proably saw this coming a mile away but she said no. I'm more than a little dissapointed. The thing was that during the break up there were a couple of comments made to the affect of, who knows what will happen in the future... and lately I felt like I was getting big hints from Laura's friends and it seemed to me from her as well as if she actually wanted to get back together. I wouldn't have asked and made such a fool of myself except I had really thought she'd say yes. I feel like such a dummy now. The truth is, I really got my hopes up. I felt sure she would say yes... *stupid stupid stupid* So having felt so sure of the whole thing for at least that day I felt like the break-up had just happened rather than being three months out. I had really thought with summer here... *sigh* I guess I was seeing what I wanted to see. At least it gave me an excuse to send her flowers at work. When we were dating it was something I'd fully planned to do but wanted to wait for the right time. I thought I had plenty of time based on how things had been going up until that night... so it was nice since it was something I'd realy wanted to do for her- knowing how much she would like it, and a friend just doesn't send a dozen roses.

So true to my word I'm moving on. I don't really want to but that's life. I went on a second and third date with Nicole- the girl I met on CL recently. She's a lot of fun and very sweet but I just don't feel like it's right so I'm still looking. Who know's maybe there's more than one librarian lesbian biker chick out there just waiting to meet me... :P