The good news, the bad news, but he makes me happy
These are just thoughts that I wanted to get out into the universe, but Myspace is too public…
The GOOD news.
He makes me feel warm and fuzzy, cliché I know. But all the stupid sayings that have to do with love and life are true with him… which is what I adore about him. He makes me laugh everyday, and not just a giggle… he makes my stomach hurt. He makes my problems seem small, but not because he see’s them that way, he just makes the rest of the world disappear. He has passion and faith. When I think about him I get red and hot in the face, jittery inside, and just all over happy, not kinda happy… ALL OVER happy. I have turned into the girl I never wanted to be… the girl that checks her cell phone every 45 seconds to see if she missed a text message… the girl who smiles when she thinks of his smile… the girl who feels butterflies…and boy do they flutter when he is around... yet that didn't stop me from talking to him, and for those who know me... I can't talk to boys. But I did that day, I have no idea what got into me really, but for some reason I did, and in that moment... I became a new person.
I love feeling butterflies.
What am I doing? Setting myself up? Maybe… but damn he makes me happier then I ever thought I could be.
The BAD BAD news.
It makes me laugh really, which isn’t the normal response when someone accuses you have having an affair with their husband. But, when someone accuses ME of having an affair with their husband… I find it very funny.
What I don’t find funny is when they tell the whole ER, ostracize you out of their lives, and leave you with your heart destroyed, your trust gone, and your mind in a daze.
My goodness, you are talking about the girl who returned and paid for a FISHBOWL a MONTH after I got it when I realized I didn’t get charged for it.
The girl who wouldn’t eat the pizza that was accidentally given to her for free.
The girl who wouldn’t cut in line at the Batman movie last Friday!
ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME?
Yes, I am having an affair with your husband… the guy who I have seen as my dad for awhile now…
This is not Arkansas… I’m not into to the “keeping it in the family” thing…
Besides, even if I was, do you think for a second that I would jeopardize what I have now? NO WAY IN HELL.
But just like everyone else in my life that I never thought would hurt me… she did. And accusing someone of the things she has accused me of… you don’t recover from that easy, if ever.
The GOOD GOOD GOOD news…
I am going to Rocky Point for a weekend… I have lost 15lbs and getting a sex pack… I wear heels everyday that I am not at work… I now have $100 jeans that I worked hard to pay for that look so amazing on me, I kinda wanna do myself… and I got a promotion at work…
So, despite the bad situations.. I am freaking amazing