"i want to stay 18 forever"
so they say there's this whole idea of the musical family, closing night was 2 saturdays ago... and honestly, that night, i didn't feel like a family, i didn't feel like i could lean on alot of those people that night. some of my close friends in it i couldnt... others did more than expected. maybe it was just my personal events this year; maybe next year will be different. but closing night, all i felt is regret, unloved, alot of resentment toward me, and left out of the unity for a majority. but now its okay, musical relationships have faded; with those who i wasn't ooberly close with- its a small smile of recongnition, if even that.
:sigh: and the past few days.. all i hear about from livejournals and what not; is the closeness that the Groves drama kids feel. they're a community. i was reading the program from commedia, and they left messages saying how good of a time they had, how close, and how much they had grown up together. we don't have that. i know all of TWO people who do the play, forensics, and the musical(christina & erica); we don't have a drama class. our theater productions aren't run by the same people. and i regret that. i sometimes regret not going to groves, not having that stable of a theater program. i know its not as shiny and perfect as it seems... but i'm sure its better.
to the groves "drama clique": you're lucky you get to grow up with a defined group of kids. not just bits and pieces of people.
granted i have made great friends in forensics and musical... quite a few i made before.. we just were lucky enough to have similar interests.
so there's this new guy. a forensics guy.. a lot already know about this. he's got a great passion for music, and gives great hugs (not that just tap you on the back spiehl). we will see.
1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"people who didnt want to be called. Of listlessly catalogin years' worth."
2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? a vegatable knife
3: What is the last thing you watched on TV? a bit of one tree hill while talking on the phone
4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is:10:40
5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 10:41
6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: brand new, and the end of the dishwashing cycle
7: When did you last step outside? after school, while talking w/ gals
8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at? comcast webpage
9: What are you wearing? hard tail pants, a light camel colored cable knit sweater with a white polo underneath
10: Did you dream last night? yes, i remember i purchased these awesome sunglasses, however my mom had to commit suicide, and then ashley threw a party in this house that was supposively mine, while my mom dead in the other room
11: When did you last laugh?on the phone around 9:30, about my fav commercial, the toys'R'us one with the bunnies!!
12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?: pottery and knifes, and a iris vangough print (kitchen)
13: Seen anything weird lately?: i saw a lady wipe a dogs butt on sunday outside of blockbuster, and carolyn do this great dance today
14: What do you think of this quiz?: i don't like that it asks this question
15: What is the last film you saw?:flex movie, danton today.. ah the french revolution and opium
16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?: a huge house, one of the ones i've loved for a long time, and it'd have a hallway with pads on the walls, and those spinny office chairs, so you could cruise and race down it. or indoor skydiving device, so i could fly. and a shopping spree. and a pool full of jello, hahah
17: Tell me something about you that I don't know: i don't think any boy will ever fall in love with me
18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?: i would make things work out the way i see fit 19. Do you like to dance?:yes
20. George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?: power crazy nutcase i say
21a: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?: chloe, or maybe bella
21b: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?: marc, or maybe joshua
22: Would you ever consider living abroad?:yes, depending on where