I remember being a teenager and falling asleep with my father in his bed. Eventually he curled up next to me and cuddled close. At the time I was perhaps too old, and definitely too violated, to accept this closeness as anything but at least a discomfort, if not an outright threat (I believe he meant no harm, he was not the one that did any). I ( Read more... )

My bathtub has been full of water since 10 AM today. There is a storm coming. The fridge is turned to colder and the heat is turned up. I'm anticipating the power going out ( Read more... )

Okay, so I'm making new Christmas traditions. I've opened my head and my heart to embrace the Christmas joy that my partner's family celebrates. Thoughtful presents made or purchased, wrapped, mailed and ready to share ahead of schedule and under budget. Go team us ( Read more... )

My family is not particularly religious. And what I mean by that is my Grandmother denounced God in her thirties when her son died shortly after birth. My stepmother insisted that we attend Baptist church on Sundays, meanwhile she drank her youngest daughter into deafness and retardation via fetal alcohol syndrome and her junkie friends ripped off ( Read more... )

My Uncle Jerry looks so sharp in his uniform. I was startled at how much my handsome young cousin Jeremy looks like him in his own Marine portrait, twenty years later. Jeremy’s brother, my cousin closest to me in age, is right now in the grit and the heat of Afghanistan. I think about you every day, Josh.

It’s no secret that I marched against this ( Read more... )

I've been working hard to do something for someone that I care very much about, and I call them because I finally have answers and they're drunk. It's mid-afternoon on a Thursday ( Read more... )

I had an image of a self-portrait on the ferry this weekend, of a silhouette filled with flying dandelion seeds. Thanks to my Uncle for sharing his tireless curiosity of our heritage, I'm thinking that I can organize the the seeds into a crystilline pattern that shows our lineage but still looks random from a distance. This sounds like a good ( Read more... )

I'm Potawatomi on my Mother's side. Since I've been talking a lot with my Mother's clinic lately I'm trying to make sure all of my information is correct with the Nation's records and whatnot. Consequentially it's been on my mind and I realized I've told the following story a couple of times in the last few weeks, so I figured I may as well write ( Read more... )

Written to cheer up sculptruth -- until I realized it was very sad.
( Not while it was blooming )

Earlier this month I reassigned my life insurance and other benificaries over to my brother. "Okay," said my brother, "when the letter-bomb-looking package arrives just go ahead and open it." My brother, what a card.

It was one of the very last things I did when my business with Aaron finally ended a few weeks ago. I'm feeling a kind of free-fall, I ( Read more... )