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[jendevil]

so, i sometimes feel like i've gotten away with something
on days like today
when i get along with my family
and i can afford to take days off work
and the cars i'm looking at, hey, i can afford those too
and i'm taking my paid vacation this summer
and i can pull off having pink (streaks in my) hair
and i feel peaceful
oh sweet peace

i've read books lately
and listened to music
and sang so loud
and sat with people quietly just so they would not be alone
and donated half my material possessions to charity. (okay, maybe like a third)

i've slept, and not slept, cried and smiled
and breathed and breathed and breathed
dear god is it wonderful to breathe
i've touched the face of someone so beautiful and watched him sleeping
i've paid the rent and paid the bills and paid for others lunches

this is fulfillment
it's so heart wrenching and wonderful and boring. obscenely beautiful in its stability.

"god, it's been a lovely day
everything is going my way
i took out the trash today
and i'm on fire"
-dresden dolls good day

thank you, thank you, thank you life for living me