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[jendevil]

i don't know why i feel the need to post this, but it weighs on me.

suicide is the scariest, hardest thing i've ever had to deal with.
more than getting clean,
more than my mom dying,
more than last winter,
more than breakups,
more than my own struggle with ending my life.

i miss my dad.
why did you have to feel that alone, daddy?
what did the world do to you?
why wasn't i there.

i miss my dad.