my heart beats inadequacy ( Read more... )

Don't answer this ( Read more... )

Now I'm the stranger his eyes slide across
as he scans the horizon
but once I was the body he fucked
several times a day
twice swelled ripe
splitting open spilling
in a gush of tears and life
into his waiting fingers
miracles but
he never really saw me then, either
his notseeing eyes overlooking all
of the possibility of me.

(annoyed that LJ doesn't allow me to format as I like, or I don't know how to make it so, cuz word position matters, too, but oh well ( Read more... )

Let's go back to poetry, which is waaaaaaaaayyy more interesting. I have a significant handful of poems that were written over the last few weeks, which were responses to things He said, or continuings of barely begun conversations. No, really, we're not talking about Him anymore: the point is that, suddenly, my brain shook loose and I was writing ( Read more... )

because i am not in the mood to make sense and probably couldn't anyway. head is crazy abstract and he never listens to me with the right filter, but i do the same to him so fair is probably fair. should maybe try to make sense and avoid repeating mistakes but. instead we will revert to notwords ( Read more... )

I painted a poem, in acrylic on canvas today. It is execrable. Really. Fat and globby and squished together where it wasn't supposed to be squished together. I've never really painted before, so I had no idea how the paint was going to act, which brushes to use, how to handle them. It could easily be the work of a precocious 4 year old ( Read more... )

Girl meets boy. Single girl meets single boy, smiles. Sparks ensue. Chemistry is compatible. Single girl follows through, with no intended outcome or goal. Simple experience, singular, or, at most occasional ( Read more... )

Didn't see this coming, and I think I should probably consider it a promising sign, that I am so far past my marriage at this point that I am ready to cry over a different boy. Buuuuuut I am so tired of crying ( Read more... )

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