The alarm went off while I was in the middle of a dream about being at a dinner party in Angela Merkel's small-ish flat, and I kept breaking things and trying to find the right cleaning implements quietly, and then I knocked over a gerbil cage and had to catch the gerbil before Iko ate it and then somehow put this strange gerbil cage back together ( Read more... )

An astonishing number of things have already gone wrong this morning, and I desperately want to curl up in bed and drink gin and eat brownies and nap ( Read more... )

I made it back to the gym after a two week hiatus and it's kind of amazing the difference it's made to how I feel., Not my mood, exactly, but just how I feel inside my body, way more confident (but much more sore.) It isn't visual, it's just feel like a being with physical agency instead of a lump.

I guess lifting heavy things just makes me feel ( Read more... )

I got imminently due album #2 90% done today and then the client stuck 5 more images into the source folder, but without a note as to what she wants done with them. Gah. I really, really, want all my album designs out the door by Friday morning, so they aren't on my mind when I go into art mode.

I know I also did other things today, but other than ( Read more... )

I'm up past midnight and I've clearly had WAAAAAY to much sugar (probably all the tea with honey becuase my sore throat/cough is still brutal) but at least all but one thing on my to-do list is finally checked off?  Which is extra good becuase half of it was for a project that has a drop dead due date of Sunday (and many hours of work to do to ( Read more... )

I keep getting the urge to throw up my hands and just close the album business to new customers, but I know that's just fall overwhelm talking. And I did just order a new sample album last night, so yeah, not really going there. I've had a sick kid at home 3 out of the last 6 school days, and it makes it harder to get stuff done than it should ( Read more... )

I have to wear a dress to the wedding this afternoon. Not because anyone is requiring me to, but because of wardrobe malfunctions. The eddies of discomfort and calculation that immediately arise from this are tiring as hell. It's a wedding, there will be pictures, I have to look nice. I have to give more fucks than usual becuase showing up looking ( Read more... )

I've been hearing all these raves about ASMR, so I watched a bunch of the recommended videos and oh, oh lordy.

I wanted to reach through the screen and punch. I got full flesh-crawl on my neck and shoulders and my anxiety level heightened super fast.

This makes me so very sad.

I am super anxious today (for no particular reason that I can figure out) and the new exciting thing my brain is doing with that is seeing clothes that would totally make me panic (or at least be very uncomfortable) if I wore them in real life, and eagerly thinking "ooh I want that".

I mean, imagine me in a soft pink velour skater dress?

I committed to exactly one non-family holiday event this year, because I am a hermit with no energy (all year, really, but especially in December). And I was really really looking forward to it. It was going to basically be my social life for the month, maybe even the quarter ( Read more... )