Happy 17th Birthday Jeff!! 3/10/90 - 12:59pm
Well, tomorrow is the first of March... Yup - your birthday month... I remember when we’d declare it your Birthday week and then it somehow ended up your Birthday month!! Lolol
Ya know, I don’t even know where to start so I’m just letting my fingers type and see where I end up... but then again, supposedly you’re “around” me all the time and of course, being the looney tune that I am, I talk to you or yell at you a lot - so you already know what’s going on down here... it sounds so great in theory, doesn’t it?.....
So you’d be 17 on March 10th... holy f*ck kiddo... SEVENTEEN! I can kind of imagine how you would “be” and kind of imagine how you’d “look”.... but HOLY SHIT - I haven’t Celebrated your Birthday with you since 2004?! Your 14th?? I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again, How Is That EVEN Possible???????????
I mean - just HOW?
Ok, so now it’s March 7th - I always was great at procrastination - don’t know where you got it.... lol
It’s sunnyish out - and the birds are coming back - and I try to appreciate it all - and I do... but.... there’s always that BUT.... you’re still not here... not of this mortal coil...bereft of life... ok, had to get a little Monty in there....
I don’t wanna get all morbid and sad and blah - I was that 2 hours ago! Lol and who knows what 2 hours from now will happen....
Well, you know you’re always on my mind..... You have been since you were born, and with me getting old now - 41! - my mind is slightly “befuddled” to use a Stephen word... and well - it doesn’t matter where I am or what I do - I’ll make it to the store and I’ll see Ketchup and that will send me over the edge - and sometimes not...
I have no answers and who the fuck knows what the questions are.... but - we all pretty much know that MOST of me died with YOU that day.... how could it not.....
You’re THERE - wherever the hell (oops, slip of the tongue there, eh? Lolol!) that is.. and I’m here... and well - down to brass tacks sweetums - it fuckin’ sucks.....
It’s that whole NEVER thing... ever, never, ever...
So - have a party my Sweetie - but remember VaVor isn’t far away, so behave with the Angle Dudes and Chicks... and the famous rockers - and the gamers!! LOL
I can’t even imagine what you would have asked for this year? Car stuff? Video games still.... ‘m pretty sure it wouldn’t be a stuffed animal.... but then again, with you - who knew!?
So - I’m doing my freakin’ job - and I’m not even doing that great of one.... but I’m keeping you alive in everyone’s hearts and minds.... hey - I’m Obnoxious! And bless you’re little skootchy heart, so were YOU.....
Happy Birthday my Jeff - I’d send you a card, but where to address it to? So maybe I’ll write you a letter - and we’ll burn it like last year... so it can reach you.... which is probably a lot of BULL, but it’s a tool that I gotta use so I don’t go completely insane...
Happy Birthday to You
Stephen is Wearing Your Shoes
Sam, Abby, Molly & Kitty Miss you
And I’m very Blue...in your shoe....on a Mountain Dew
I’m over the Flu... I wish I were With You...
Hallmark, watch out!!
Love ya sweetie - Happy Birthday... I guess I can’t call you at 12:59pm on the 10th yet again this year.... oh yeah, by the way... What the fuck!!??
Xoxoxox MomMoms....