Yeesh!
So the past month has been rediculous. Between fights, hospital visits, more fights, and random other catastrophes, I'm about at the end of my rope. Think I exaggerate? Well how would you be fairing if all of the following happened to you in less than a month's time? :
-I dislocated my shoulder on the freeway and sat in an ER for.. ever. $900 later, the problem is fixed. Except they didn't even have to do anything cuz it kinda fixed itself.
-Me and some friends went to Cedar Point for the weekend and my car died about an hour and a half from our destination.
-We had to rent a car to get to Sandusky which cost $250 just for the weekend.
-We had to take a 20 hour bus ride home which cost $300
-Back home, my financial aid still hasn't come in (3 weeks later) and rent's coming up. Aye aye aye!
-My dad who has never shown too much concern for my life has said (for all of myspace to see cuz he's just that cool) that he will always be there for the friend who thinks I'm a failure. When he doesn't even know this friend and hello I'm his daughter. Why not trying to be there for me for once in my life instead of simply replying "boo hoo" when I tell you about my weekend from hell?
-My roomies keep making all these plans without me then including me last second out of pity. No thanks guys! :P
-School is sucking. I'm behind on my work and my internship stinks cuz the teacher doesn't want me in his classroom. And what the heck am I doing when I graduate? I wanted to go to the beach but not alone. But if I go home I feel like I'll pretty much be alone anyway.
So basically... I'm broke and like $7000 in debt (including fees from the weekend). I have no job. I have no car to get to a job. You never know who your friends are until times get tough and they bail. So I have minimal REAL friends. My family is just as supportive as always.. meaning just as long as I don't die they could care less about my whereabouts. :) And school is just one more thing to remind me I stink. So yeah I'm about ready to call it quits.
This room's too small, it's only getting smaller
I'm against the wall, I'm slowly getting taller here in Wonderland.
This guilt feels so familiar and I'm home.
And I will crawl, theres things that aren't worth giving up I know.
But I won't let this get me I will fight.
You live the life you're given with the storms outside somedays all I do is watch the sky,
Somedays all I do is watch the sky.
I think I, I could use a little break, today was a good day.
I think I, I could use a little break, today was a good day.
It's a deep sea on which I'm floating. Still I sink to think that i must...
Crawl, theres things that aren't worth giving up I know.
When you can't bear to carry me I'll fight.
You live the life you're given with the storms outside somedays all I do is watch the sky
-I dislocated my shoulder on the freeway and sat in an ER for.. ever. $900 later, the problem is fixed. Except they didn't even have to do anything cuz it kinda fixed itself.
-Me and some friends went to Cedar Point for the weekend and my car died about an hour and a half from our destination.
-We had to rent a car to get to Sandusky which cost $250 just for the weekend.
-We had to take a 20 hour bus ride home which cost $300
-Back home, my financial aid still hasn't come in (3 weeks later) and rent's coming up. Aye aye aye!
-My dad who has never shown too much concern for my life has said (for all of myspace to see cuz he's just that cool) that he will always be there for the friend who thinks I'm a failure. When he doesn't even know this friend and hello I'm his daughter. Why not trying to be there for me for once in my life instead of simply replying "boo hoo" when I tell you about my weekend from hell?
-My roomies keep making all these plans without me then including me last second out of pity. No thanks guys! :P
-School is sucking. I'm behind on my work and my internship stinks cuz the teacher doesn't want me in his classroom. And what the heck am I doing when I graduate? I wanted to go to the beach but not alone. But if I go home I feel like I'll pretty much be alone anyway.
So basically... I'm broke and like $7000 in debt (including fees from the weekend). I have no job. I have no car to get to a job. You never know who your friends are until times get tough and they bail. So I have minimal REAL friends. My family is just as supportive as always.. meaning just as long as I don't die they could care less about my whereabouts. :) And school is just one more thing to remind me I stink. So yeah I'm about ready to call it quits.
This room's too small, it's only getting smaller
I'm against the wall, I'm slowly getting taller here in Wonderland.
This guilt feels so familiar and I'm home.
And I will crawl, theres things that aren't worth giving up I know.
But I won't let this get me I will fight.
You live the life you're given with the storms outside somedays all I do is watch the sky,
Somedays all I do is watch the sky.
I think I, I could use a little break, today was a good day.
I think I, I could use a little break, today was a good day.
It's a deep sea on which I'm floating. Still I sink to think that i must...
Crawl, theres things that aren't worth giving up I know.
When you can't bear to carry me I'll fight.
You live the life you're given with the storms outside somedays all I do is watch the sky