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Yeah, so this is a not private entry this time. I don't think anyone really pays attention to this thing anyways, but I have been making private entries lately... so it probably seems like I've made no entries at all. They're private just because I think some the information in there could possibly be harmful to me if it got out.
Anyways, like I've been saying in my private entries... I've gotten a whole lot more comfortable with the whole journal concept. This post is just basically a continuation of one I just got done making, but it's an unimportant part so I figured I may as well post it.
I'm just sitting here with a lack of motivation to start my day, and really with no idea of how I should go about it either. It's very rarely that I wake up at 10am on a Saturday morning, but I actually went to bed early last night so it's not a surprise I guess. I need to shower, do my laundry, do some studying, eat, go to work and visit the Japanese rock garden : not in that order.
I'm feeling really shitty, so I'm actually only looking forward to doing a couple of those things. I could tell Thursday that this weekend was going to suck... and I know it is for sure now. I wish I had someway to just travel in time to a period where I don't feel this way anymore. Everything is so hard right now when I feel so hurt inside.
I won't go more into how I am feeling... I don't really have the time, and I've already done that in my private posts. Needless to say though, I don't want to do anything anymore. I just want to sit around and do whatever I feel like doing, not what I have to do. I was alright yesterday, maybe today will improve. Each day is different, and each part of day is different as well.
I guess I should go to it though. I am going to: shower, do laundry (and eat at the same time), go to the rock garden, study and go to work.
Anyways, like I've been saying in my private entries... I've gotten a whole lot more comfortable with the whole journal concept. This post is just basically a continuation of one I just got done making, but it's an unimportant part so I figured I may as well post it.
I'm just sitting here with a lack of motivation to start my day, and really with no idea of how I should go about it either. It's very rarely that I wake up at 10am on a Saturday morning, but I actually went to bed early last night so it's not a surprise I guess. I need to shower, do my laundry, do some studying, eat, go to work and visit the Japanese rock garden : not in that order.
I'm feeling really shitty, so I'm actually only looking forward to doing a couple of those things. I could tell Thursday that this weekend was going to suck... and I know it is for sure now. I wish I had someway to just travel in time to a period where I don't feel this way anymore. Everything is so hard right now when I feel so hurt inside.
I won't go more into how I am feeling... I don't really have the time, and I've already done that in my private posts. Needless to say though, I don't want to do anything anymore. I just want to sit around and do whatever I feel like doing, not what I have to do. I was alright yesterday, maybe today will improve. Each day is different, and each part of day is different as well.
I guess I should go to it though. I am going to: shower, do laundry (and eat at the same time), go to the rock garden, study and go to work.