Working in Overtime October...
It's been an exceptional time since I updated. I would've liked to appropriately write this through a client on a computer, but instead, I'm using an app. Even I can limp into the future.
We're halfway through Overtime October, the month I'm trying to make at least one mortgage payment by working enough overtime to kill some damned body. Last week alone, I have 27.5 hours. Between overtime and mileage, there will be a nice check coming to us. Not that we can use it, per se- it's already allocated, but it'll be nice to see larger numbers in my bank account.
I know logically we're halfway through. I now have my official diploma, so am waiting on some information from my previous supervisor before I apply to the Board. In truth, I feel somewhat numb; I know I completed graduate school, but I feel as though there was no transition.
Maybe it's the work, maybe it's the head games with my parents. Maybe it's not having enough time to properly set up my house or clean it. Maybe it's the shoulder injury I've been couching for maybe a month. I feel both comfortable and efficient, but wickedly overworked and tired.
There's an endgame. I'm hoping that after Overtime October, I'll take a few personal days to look at a wall. Maybe I'll order food we can't afford and watch TiVo, though it'll probably just be more Dog Whisperersince I can't brain for television anymore. Maybe I'll run again.
Running. I've been debating if I can do a spin class with my shoulder being weird. I'm hoping for my insurance cards to come in soon so I can follow up with a doctor. It's been constant, which is what concerns me. I wonder if I'll have to go back to my hand doctor, since apparently he does shoulders, too.
Fidget's doing well at school, or so he tells me through text message because I'm working All The Time. It's good to see him happy and impassioned, even if I'm a bit worse for wear. I'm also thisclose to finally finishing the condo, so will eventually have that off my plate. Having toilets installed and cable and finishing carpet- all we need is some of Fidget's dad's furniture to round it out.
Momma had another operation where dead blood was removed from the base of her spine. Had been causing pain and pressure, as well as a fever. I'm hoping this will finally settle down and I'll start flying to and from Florida during the weekends I have. Weeks of three nights in Maryland, four in Florida. I might as well take advantage of the schedule and lack of homework- maybe I could read a book or something. They have a really late flight that comes out of BWI on Wednesdays and a really early one on Sunday- like it's meant to happen.
So, again I'll attach another month to potentially burn myself out. I have the thought to sit for licensure, then quit my job to clean and organize, resetting myself to be a therapist. I know the winter is coming- I don't necessarily have a tendency to hibernate, but I know I can slow down. Maybe after the exam and having a firm job offer, I'll take that time off: off from work, off from my parents, even off from Fidget. I'll hang out with Sadiecat and organize all of this new stuff we have. I'll finish at least one room. I'll feel at peace in my home instead of pushing through to the next swing shift...
... just glad this life is temporary and not permanent.