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Wow, God's been showing me a lot lately. Mostly that I need to DEPEND ON HIM!!!!! I've always depended on Him for the things I thought I needed. But he's been showing me that I need to depend on Him for the things that I didn't think I needed, if that makes sense. I've learned that a lot of people are feeling the same ways that I feel, and I want to reach out to them. I thought "oh yeah, since I'm so good on this subject I don't need God's help, I don't need him to give me words to say." WRONG! God can really humble me sometimes, and when I get vain in thinking that I can't be humbled anymore, he humbles me more! I trip, and he picks me up. This whole thing is like that verse in James "humble youselves in the sight of the Lord, and he will lift you up." I think it's James 4:10.
James has kind of been my book lately. It speaks about all these things I'm goin through, it's awesome! And there's that whole verse that says "confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed."
That's where this humility thing comes in. I have such a hard time with this verse. I love to talk with others and pray for them, but when it comes to talkin about my struggles? that door is closed!
"i don't need anyone, I'm fine by myself, I don't need to open up"
>then God shows me that verse and it totally humbles me. So I decided last night that I'm going to meet with my youth pastor, and tell him what's going on, just so he can keep me accountable. This is such a hard thing for me to do, I haven't talked about any of this with anyone here. The devil keeps tellin me that I'm going to be judged and hated, and I'm trying to stay strong and ignore his voice at the same time. So I could use some prayer with this! I need to pray about it some more but I think Jamey's a good person to talk to, and he's someone I can trust. I'm so psyched for Mexico this year! Last time I went was awesome and I know God's going to do amazing things!!! (katie I'm so glad you're goin, you make long trips interesting...) lol
James has kind of been my book lately. It speaks about all these things I'm goin through, it's awesome! And there's that whole verse that says "confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed."
That's where this humility thing comes in. I have such a hard time with this verse. I love to talk with others and pray for them, but when it comes to talkin about my struggles? that door is closed!
"i don't need anyone, I'm fine by myself, I don't need to open up"
>then God shows me that verse and it totally humbles me. So I decided last night that I'm going to meet with my youth pastor, and tell him what's going on, just so he can keep me accountable. This is such a hard thing for me to do, I haven't talked about any of this with anyone here. The devil keeps tellin me that I'm going to be judged and hated, and I'm trying to stay strong and ignore his voice at the same time. So I could use some prayer with this! I need to pray about it some more but I think Jamey's a good person to talk to, and he's someone I can trust. I'm so psyched for Mexico this year! Last time I went was awesome and I know God's going to do amazing things!!! (katie I'm so glad you're goin, you make long trips interesting...) lol