Dammit
Everytime I try to log in, I get kicked off. I hate this, but am trying again. Busy busy busy. Still unpacking, still trying to work my ass off, and am in a shit load of confusion. Been hit on everynight that I work at the Tower, and T at GZ I think is hitting on me, C still keeps flirting (tho he is harmless), and P is in Milwaukee. D came over today with a half hour notice while I was stinky and grimey and had a small chance to shower before. We hung out on the porch and talked small talk and snuggled. It felt so good to be hugged and held again. Am I the devil for loving it from him even tho he is married? Nothing happened, just us sitting next to each other with his arm around me and my head on his shoulder. Talking, catching up. I'm still married but seperated, but his wife is bi-polar and on meds (not that that is bad or anything). It was just really weird, but comforting at the same time. Guess I'm not used to straight guys being platonic. Hope that is it. Nothing else. Love him, but don't want to, shit, I don't know....