omg omg
whenever i say omg i always think o-m-g so then i have to laugh at myself b/c i sound like a fricken cheerleader!! well the fun apart about all this silly technology that even once im out of school i probably will keep updating until college and ive got that lil myspace thingy so ppl can see my age progression. thats great.
um so. POPS!!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!!! jesus. i cant describe the happiness it brings to me to think about how wonderful it was, but then comes the depression because i love it SO MUCH and i love my choir SO MUCH and to leave it is like leaving the best thing that i got out of highschool, which it is. i know its silly b/c of course im goign to do choir next year, but i feel like im really leaving something behind. and i couldnt tell u what that is. probably a mixture of my amazing choir, whom all of them i do love dearly. and if its not love its respect and fondness (that word sounds oldy). anyways, so its that, and plus i really loved my juniors and i never had enough time to say goodbye...sign yearbooks. GAH. i suppose burrus was right about how crazy fast this last week has gone! its literally like WHOOSH!
i will miss the POPS concert and having that. what an awesome way to end the year. and i sang my solo/duet!!! and it went soo good!! thanks to everyone who let me know they thought i did good! that was literally my first solo! and it wasnt bad AT ALL! like i dont remmeber being nervous up there singing and even right before..waiting to go on the stage i was a wreck, but i think i could've calmed myself more. emotions were just flying high. but i think i enjoyed my solo just b/c it was FUN to sing, i LIKE jazz. whereas my other solo&ensemble shit is stuff i dont really like and is really hard. but i love jazz. i should get into that. but i cant wait to get the CD. and i know it will probably suck as in quality but at least ill be able to hear solos and i can critique myself to death.
i am SOOO excited for college! i feel like i should more sad that highschool is ending...and i think on monday and tuesday it will become a little more solemn just b/c all the ppl ive loved over these 3 years are leaving..but im still so goddamn excited. its like everything ive ever wanted, all the opportunities are SOO close and they all wait at this college. im so excited to just experience it all! i feel like running up to UPS and be like "here i am!!!im finally here!". looking back over highschool..i wouldnt say it was the best experience. an immensely growing one, but it wasnt a fun growth. i had to learn things the hard way, figure out who i am the hard way, but it was worth it, just not very fun. i hope the senior party is fun b/c thats what i want to do. party. i want to celebrate the end of this life and the beginning of new one and i want to be w/ all my friends who amazingly get to do the same thing! i think college is going to be such an incredible experience for all, as long as you let it. and i really cant wait to grow and discover new things. thats the reason why im so passionate about traveling, being open to all kinds of music, foods, cultures, sexuality, and education (like taking the classes that will challenge you). im really goin off on a tangent, but i had to write down all this. highschool seems so far off even now. or maybe it was just sophmore and junior year. senior year feels like it just started. but even tho, it feels like it should be ending. ive definitely put in my time and hardass work.
im going to go work out at the gym tonight, for the first time in forever, and its going to feel good. unforutnatley i dont get to have a boni movie night b/c me mum is studying for her final exam.
can you possibly imagine leaving highschool w/out a plan? a future? if that was me, and i pictured what my life would be like, i envision flat dry barren land, that extends forever, always the same and neverending. either desert like or like the flatlands or wherever its flat. what a depressing thought.
anyways, that would be my reflective..altho i guess thats more deflective? cuz im looking towards the future? whatever, its my thought provoking post, at least for me, heh. o, im kinda sad i didnt turn in any pics for the senior slide show. erg.
um so. POPS!!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!!! jesus. i cant describe the happiness it brings to me to think about how wonderful it was, but then comes the depression because i love it SO MUCH and i love my choir SO MUCH and to leave it is like leaving the best thing that i got out of highschool, which it is. i know its silly b/c of course im goign to do choir next year, but i feel like im really leaving something behind. and i couldnt tell u what that is. probably a mixture of my amazing choir, whom all of them i do love dearly. and if its not love its respect and fondness (that word sounds oldy). anyways, so its that, and plus i really loved my juniors and i never had enough time to say goodbye...sign yearbooks. GAH. i suppose burrus was right about how crazy fast this last week has gone! its literally like WHOOSH!
i will miss the POPS concert and having that. what an awesome way to end the year. and i sang my solo/duet!!! and it went soo good!! thanks to everyone who let me know they thought i did good! that was literally my first solo! and it wasnt bad AT ALL! like i dont remmeber being nervous up there singing and even right before..waiting to go on the stage i was a wreck, but i think i could've calmed myself more. emotions were just flying high. but i think i enjoyed my solo just b/c it was FUN to sing, i LIKE jazz. whereas my other solo&ensemble shit is stuff i dont really like and is really hard. but i love jazz. i should get into that. but i cant wait to get the CD. and i know it will probably suck as in quality but at least ill be able to hear solos and i can critique myself to death.
i am SOOO excited for college! i feel like i should more sad that highschool is ending...and i think on monday and tuesday it will become a little more solemn just b/c all the ppl ive loved over these 3 years are leaving..but im still so goddamn excited. its like everything ive ever wanted, all the opportunities are SOO close and they all wait at this college. im so excited to just experience it all! i feel like running up to UPS and be like "here i am!!!im finally here!". looking back over highschool..i wouldnt say it was the best experience. an immensely growing one, but it wasnt a fun growth. i had to learn things the hard way, figure out who i am the hard way, but it was worth it, just not very fun. i hope the senior party is fun b/c thats what i want to do. party. i want to celebrate the end of this life and the beginning of new one and i want to be w/ all my friends who amazingly get to do the same thing! i think college is going to be such an incredible experience for all, as long as you let it. and i really cant wait to grow and discover new things. thats the reason why im so passionate about traveling, being open to all kinds of music, foods, cultures, sexuality, and education (like taking the classes that will challenge you). im really goin off on a tangent, but i had to write down all this. highschool seems so far off even now. or maybe it was just sophmore and junior year. senior year feels like it just started. but even tho, it feels like it should be ending. ive definitely put in my time and hardass work.
im going to go work out at the gym tonight, for the first time in forever, and its going to feel good. unforutnatley i dont get to have a boni movie night b/c me mum is studying for her final exam.
can you possibly imagine leaving highschool w/out a plan? a future? if that was me, and i pictured what my life would be like, i envision flat dry barren land, that extends forever, always the same and neverending. either desert like or like the flatlands or wherever its flat. what a depressing thought.
anyways, that would be my reflective..altho i guess thats more deflective? cuz im looking towards the future? whatever, its my thought provoking post, at least for me, heh. o, im kinda sad i didnt turn in any pics for the senior slide show. erg.