I'm not using my journal. It's just causing trouble for me, so goodbye.

My heart is beating really fast. It's hard to breathe, and I feel like I'm going to cry. The weird thing is, I have no clue what triggered this. I feel really lightheaded and depressed. I don't know why I'm too chicken to just end this suffering of mine. Aren't the cuts on my thigh enough? I've tried to prove to everyone that what I did was stupid ( Read more... )

I'll admit it this time and this time only: I miss you. Our talks would last forever, we were really close, and even though I've never met you, I felt like I knew you my entire life. And because of the recent shit I've put everyone through, there's nothing left of what I had. Just some memories and saved conversations of painful memories. Nothing's ( Read more... )

There's this person on the Good Charlotte boards claiming to be Gerard Way from MCR. I don't believe him. Oh my lyrics ( Read more... )

What good is tomorrow without a guarantee?
I was wrapped around her finger
And I began to believe

That the consequences of your actions really are just a game
That your life is just a chain reaction taking you day by day
She says nothing's forever in this crazy world
Still I'm falling in love with the right now poster girl

The things we did, the things we said ( Read more... )

Take what you need ( Read more... )

I know you're in there ( Read more... )

I got a one at the competition!!!! I'm so happy! There were a whole bunch of people watching me, and I was so nervous that I just took a deep breath and sang it better than I had ever done. I was so happy after that I was shaking. WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!

I'm sooooo tired. And tomorrow is my sleep-in day, too. I have to get up at 8:30 tomorrow for the Solo & Ensemble Competition at the high school. I'm in an ensemble and I'm singing a solo. So woo hoo. I'm nervous, but I hope I get a one or a two! Wish me luck!

P.S. what does it mean to backdate a journal entry?