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how do you know you found the one? are they the one when they are the only one you can think about? when all you want to do is see them? when all you want to do is be with them and be happy? i think so. i went to a shindig at my old friends house. i havent hung out there in forever and he invited me so i said why not. sara tony and kyle were there. i invited lora to go with and she did. tony and kyle like me and i knew that. they are good friends of mine and i may have liked tony in the past. during this shindig i went outside with tony and talked a bit he told me he was dating someone. but that he would leave her for me. not something i wanted to hear. and he asked when we going to get together. i told him i had a man and he was like so. all i could do was say i had a man and think of anthony. all i could do was think what is anthony doing? how is he doing? when will he get home? when will i be able to see him? we started watching a movie all of us expect lora she had to go home so we are watchign a movie then it ended up just being tony and i he was on one side of the couch and i was on the other but we were lying on eachother kinda. all i could think about again was anthony. i just wanted to be with him.
i remember anthony asking me when i knew i loved him. i answered a long time ago with i don't know. but i think i knew when i couldn't stop thinking about him. every thought of us spending time together just makes me smile. i never really got sad not seeing any of my bf's in the past but i really miss him. i feel i cant live without knowing how he is. he has been gone since wednesday. hell be home tomorrow hopefully. he said he would call when he got home. im hoping we can see eachtother tomorrow cuz i dont have to work.
i used to never be able to talk to my bfs i was always scared. i would talk to them on the phone or the computer. i was using those as a safety blanket. but with anthony all i want to do is talk to him in person. i mean ill talk to him on the phone and computer as well but if i have something really important i want to know about i want to talk in person. i feel confident talking to him like its ok to say my feelings. im happy i can do that.
someone please tell me if all im feeling is good or bad. i know what you will say but still give me input. have i bloomed?
i remember anthony asking me when i knew i loved him. i answered a long time ago with i don't know. but i think i knew when i couldn't stop thinking about him. every thought of us spending time together just makes me smile. i never really got sad not seeing any of my bf's in the past but i really miss him. i feel i cant live without knowing how he is. he has been gone since wednesday. hell be home tomorrow hopefully. he said he would call when he got home. im hoping we can see eachtother tomorrow cuz i dont have to work.
i used to never be able to talk to my bfs i was always scared. i would talk to them on the phone or the computer. i was using those as a safety blanket. but with anthony all i want to do is talk to him in person. i mean ill talk to him on the phone and computer as well but if i have something really important i want to know about i want to talk in person. i feel confident talking to him like its ok to say my feelings. im happy i can do that.
someone please tell me if all im feeling is good or bad. i know what you will say but still give me input. have i bloomed?