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im tired but i can't fall asleep. too much going on in my mind. im wondering how its going to be between anthony and i when i come back from camp. will he wait for me? will he find someone new? if it does last or make it through is he the one? hmmmmm..... i don't know what to think. but i do know i need to go to bed.
i was suppose to see anthony tomorrow but i forgot about my doc appointment for my knee tomorrow. grrr stupid memory. so i'm going ot call him and hope to see him either thursday or friday. and no i plan on not having sex. not a good time anyways. i just want to be with him. spend time with him. atcually watch the movie he said we would watch last time.
i also want to know why he likes me so much. what makes me so special from any other girl he sees. im not that pretty and the girl from the crack house even thinks so. that bitch. lora inge and i went there to see adam working and lora was polite and asked to be seated in adam section. she went to adam mocked lora and had the nerve to say that one out of the three were good looking. i could have kicked her ass if she wasn't working. like i said before i know i'm not hot like other girls but hey at least people like me for me. or at least i think they do. and im hoping i can get anthony to talk and just talk about everything. that would be the best. i really do like him and i'm hoping that we can make it through camp and once i get a place i can see him more. one of the last times i talked to him he asked when am i going to get my own place. and i told him i was hoping by the end of the year and i asked him if i did get my own place if i was going to see him more and he told me maybe. he said he is going to be starting days next week i think. i was a bit sleepy when he told me that. that would be great because i could see him for a little bit at nights.
but yeah the next time im gonna ask him that if i went to camp if he would see other people. and why he likes me. and if he still would want to be with me after camp.
i'm getting a little bit more sleepy so i think i will try to go to bed.
i was suppose to see anthony tomorrow but i forgot about my doc appointment for my knee tomorrow. grrr stupid memory. so i'm going ot call him and hope to see him either thursday or friday. and no i plan on not having sex. not a good time anyways. i just want to be with him. spend time with him. atcually watch the movie he said we would watch last time.
i also want to know why he likes me so much. what makes me so special from any other girl he sees. im not that pretty and the girl from the crack house even thinks so. that bitch. lora inge and i went there to see adam working and lora was polite and asked to be seated in adam section. she went to adam mocked lora and had the nerve to say that one out of the three were good looking. i could have kicked her ass if she wasn't working. like i said before i know i'm not hot like other girls but hey at least people like me for me. or at least i think they do. and im hoping i can get anthony to talk and just talk about everything. that would be the best. i really do like him and i'm hoping that we can make it through camp and once i get a place i can see him more. one of the last times i talked to him he asked when am i going to get my own place. and i told him i was hoping by the end of the year and i asked him if i did get my own place if i was going to see him more and he told me maybe. he said he is going to be starting days next week i think. i was a bit sleepy when he told me that. that would be great because i could see him for a little bit at nights.
but yeah the next time im gonna ask him that if i went to camp if he would see other people. and why he likes me. and if he still would want to be with me after camp.
i'm getting a little bit more sleepy so i think i will try to go to bed.