So, I don't know why, but I'm about to have a break down cause I found out game is happening. I feel left out even though I know nothing is being done to hurt me. I don't understand this hurt. I wish I did. I want to stop feeling it.

I miss everyone already...I wish I could be there. I wish I didn't feel this need to please people.

I need a hug

I freaked out last night. I don't know why, I just did. I had two or three panic attacks within the span of a couple hours. It threw me off. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I still don't feel right. All I know is AJ is upset cause he was already off kilter and then I threw that in. I should have been able to be stronger for her. I'm doing ( Read more... )

AJ posting in lissa account, to tell her loves!!

Everything around me seems to be falling apart. AJ, Master, Andrew, school...Everything. I want to be in class, but I can't feel good about it when my family and I are all slowly drifting apart. AJ and I don't talk like we did when I joined this relationship. Everytime she says she might go somewhere without me I'm scared she won't come back. I"m ( Read more... )