Hell night
I freaked out last night. I don't know why, I just did. I had two or three panic attacks within the span of a couple hours. It threw me off. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I still don't feel right. All I know is AJ is upset cause he was already off kilter and then I threw that in. I should have been able to be stronger for her. I'm doing the best I can today, but I can't hide shit from her. I think she just wants to be away from me today. That's fine. I know I can be a nuisance when I attach myself to people. I think this is why all of my friends drift away from me as soon as I'm gone. I just want people, but I sometimes have trouble telling when people don't want me.
I have to go to class soon. I don't want to. I want to stay home. I don't feel right and the world might be too big for me. But I will drive forward in my efforts to seem okay. I will be okay. Eventually. Maybe.
I have to go to class soon. I don't want to. I want to stay home. I don't feel right and the world might be too big for me. But I will drive forward in my efforts to seem okay. I will be okay. Eventually. Maybe.