It's just been one of those days..
Had a pretty bleh day today. Spent the night at Wade's place, woke up really early bc he had work, so I drove back to Irvine and started my day early.
It's nice to be up kind of early, feels like you can get a lot done. Unfortunately it also means you feel tired as shit by the end of the day, and seeing as how Tuesdays are my long day ( class at 11, work till 6, and another night shif ttill 930ish) I picked the wrong day to wake up early.
After class I go to work 20 minutes earlier than usual to eat my lunch in the office before i start my shift. That fucking didnt happen, the office was packed and even though the office manager said it was ok if I ate she kept giving me dirty looks for not helping her out. so halfway thru my tiny salad i gave up and helped her out, partially bc of guilt, partially bc i didnt want her yelling at em the rest of the day. Instead I had my boba which for some reason was made super sweet so it made me jittery all day.. and not in a good way where i was jumping around getting work done, but in a way i couldnt concentrate on anything. Fucking busy day.
Then night shift at the stockroom, boring tiring and useless as usual.
The only barely positive thing that happened today is Jenn and I got a chance to catch up. Got some dinner after her lab and my shift, complained about our boy, school, and roommate troubles. Naveen has been getting on my nerves again. She's a cool roomie when sehs solo, but the combination of her and Drew (her BF) drives me crazy. Theyre so "white trash" as wade calls it, which i guess would make sense bc naveen says shes from a hick town in NorCal. The two together are rude and crude, and they always have sex in the bathroom, ALWAYS, and they dont even care to make it hidden. UGH I found a used condom and the WRAPPER in the toilet this morning WHAT THE FUCK she better fucking pay the plumber when he pulls out a million condom wrappers from our clogged toilet. Also, Drew's feet smell bad bc he has some sort of disease? i dont know but its gross and it stinks up the house, and he always misses and pees on the toilet seat. I fucking Lysol the hell out of my bathroom as you can imagine.
I've been feeling kind of pathetic lately. Wade has a new full time job, so he hasn't been around as much (he was over like every day fo rthe last month) and I've gotten attached. To the point where I wonder how the hell I survived the last 3 and ahalf years. Unfortunately Im the kind of person who always needs to be around people (unless i have to study of course.. or i am busy with my tv shows :P) . But I guess thats only part of it, now that wades back I feel like we have to makeup for the past 3 years.. you know like go on dates, give little presents or have surprises for eachother, or just even chill together. Realistically, we both are busy, so we dont have to hang out everyday, but once of twice a week would be nice. Even while he was over at my place a lot last month, we were in different rooms doing our own thing.. but its comforting knowing he's there. Now, since his work place is in Anaheim, he goes back home a lot. I guess I should just let him settle into his new job..
Don't get me wrong, we are in a good place right now, no major fights or anything, but I feel like we are a goddamn married couple and I put more effort into our relationship than he does.. and when I complain about it he'll say "Well I'm really busy with work" . Um. I work 3 jobs. and go to school full time. But I still find time to look nice and do little things for you to show you I care, what have you done for me lately? I'll be pretty pissed if he forgets to do something for Valentines day.
Maybe I got my expectations up.. I thought things would be more interesting and romantic once Wade moved back, I guess I'm just a stupid romantic huh?
And you know that with grad school and me eventually getting a full time job, it can only go downhill from here on. He's gonna live at his home where his mommy will feed him and do his laundry, and I will be going to school for another year and hide out in Irvine so my parents dont marry me off.
Yep, feeling pretty shitty, almost like PMS shitty. Maybe sleep will do me some good
It's nice to be up kind of early, feels like you can get a lot done. Unfortunately it also means you feel tired as shit by the end of the day, and seeing as how Tuesdays are my long day ( class at 11, work till 6, and another night shif ttill 930ish) I picked the wrong day to wake up early.
After class I go to work 20 minutes earlier than usual to eat my lunch in the office before i start my shift. That fucking didnt happen, the office was packed and even though the office manager said it was ok if I ate she kept giving me dirty looks for not helping her out. so halfway thru my tiny salad i gave up and helped her out, partially bc of guilt, partially bc i didnt want her yelling at em the rest of the day. Instead I had my boba which for some reason was made super sweet so it made me jittery all day.. and not in a good way where i was jumping around getting work done, but in a way i couldnt concentrate on anything. Fucking busy day.
Then night shift at the stockroom, boring tiring and useless as usual.
The only barely positive thing that happened today is Jenn and I got a chance to catch up. Got some dinner after her lab and my shift, complained about our boy, school, and roommate troubles. Naveen has been getting on my nerves again. She's a cool roomie when sehs solo, but the combination of her and Drew (her BF) drives me crazy. Theyre so "white trash" as wade calls it, which i guess would make sense bc naveen says shes from a hick town in NorCal. The two together are rude and crude, and they always have sex in the bathroom, ALWAYS, and they dont even care to make it hidden. UGH I found a used condom and the WRAPPER in the toilet this morning WHAT THE FUCK she better fucking pay the plumber when he pulls out a million condom wrappers from our clogged toilet. Also, Drew's feet smell bad bc he has some sort of disease? i dont know but its gross and it stinks up the house, and he always misses and pees on the toilet seat. I fucking Lysol the hell out of my bathroom as you can imagine.
I've been feeling kind of pathetic lately. Wade has a new full time job, so he hasn't been around as much (he was over like every day fo rthe last month) and I've gotten attached. To the point where I wonder how the hell I survived the last 3 and ahalf years. Unfortunately Im the kind of person who always needs to be around people (unless i have to study of course.. or i am busy with my tv shows :P) . But I guess thats only part of it, now that wades back I feel like we have to makeup for the past 3 years.. you know like go on dates, give little presents or have surprises for eachother, or just even chill together. Realistically, we both are busy, so we dont have to hang out everyday, but once of twice a week would be nice. Even while he was over at my place a lot last month, we were in different rooms doing our own thing.. but its comforting knowing he's there. Now, since his work place is in Anaheim, he goes back home a lot. I guess I should just let him settle into his new job..
Don't get me wrong, we are in a good place right now, no major fights or anything, but I feel like we are a goddamn married couple and I put more effort into our relationship than he does.. and when I complain about it he'll say "Well I'm really busy with work" . Um. I work 3 jobs. and go to school full time. But I still find time to look nice and do little things for you to show you I care, what have you done for me lately? I'll be pretty pissed if he forgets to do something for Valentines day.
Maybe I got my expectations up.. I thought things would be more interesting and romantic once Wade moved back, I guess I'm just a stupid romantic huh?
And you know that with grad school and me eventually getting a full time job, it can only go downhill from here on. He's gonna live at his home where his mommy will feed him and do his laundry, and I will be going to school for another year and hide out in Irvine so my parents dont marry me off.
Yep, feeling pretty shitty, almost like PMS shitty. Maybe sleep will do me some good