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The Ultimate Time
The Year After you graduate High School.
The year where you find out what a piece of shit you are. I'm so sick and tired of being treated like shit, but when you act like shit I guess that's what you get. I want so badly to be the person they want me to be, but I can't. I'm a broken girl that spends 80% of her life wishing she wasn't alive.
The Diary of a crazy person.
How crazy can one 18 year old girl be?
My wonderful and patient boyfriend. And I call him crying about my ex? I wasn't like Brian's ex-girl friend. I have to stop blaming myself. I have to forgive myself and move on otherwise this will never work. I wish I was smarter. I wish I was better. I wish I was stronger. Who cares what these ass holes think about you? Why do you have to put others down? Why does life have to be so stupid? Amelia is not my role model. Melissa definately isn't my role model. I have to be my role model. I want so badly to be the girl he deserves. I want so badly to be the girl that makes you jealous.
I look at highschool as a complete waste.
I was a nutcase that was an asshole to everyone I came across. I accomplished nothing but making sure everyone hated me, and if they didn't hate me they manipulated me. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry to Jeff. I'm so sorry to Frank, they don't deserve this. I wish I was more.
The Year After you graduate High School.
The year where you find out what a piece of shit you are. I'm so sick and tired of being treated like shit, but when you act like shit I guess that's what you get. I want so badly to be the person they want me to be, but I can't. I'm a broken girl that spends 80% of her life wishing she wasn't alive.
The Diary of a crazy person.
How crazy can one 18 year old girl be?
My wonderful and patient boyfriend. And I call him crying about my ex? I wasn't like Brian's ex-girl friend. I have to stop blaming myself. I have to forgive myself and move on otherwise this will never work. I wish I was smarter. I wish I was better. I wish I was stronger. Who cares what these ass holes think about you? Why do you have to put others down? Why does life have to be so stupid? Amelia is not my role model. Melissa definately isn't my role model. I have to be my role model. I want so badly to be the girl he deserves. I want so badly to be the girl that makes you jealous.
I look at highschool as a complete waste.
I was a nutcase that was an asshole to everyone I came across. I accomplished nothing but making sure everyone hated me, and if they didn't hate me they manipulated me. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry to Jeff. I'm so sorry to Frank, they don't deserve this. I wish I was more.