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The last time I wrote i mentioned that Matt and I had gotten in a big fight b/c he lied about something. Well, long story short, that day I found out he had been dating another girl for a month. He and I were BARELY speaking to each other at the time but I had def asked him several times during that month if he was dating anyone and he said no. In fact, we got in a fight on July 24th and I asked if there was someone else and that's why we were ending things and he said No.....he went on his first date with her less than a week later. He continued to date her for a month....meanwhile he was really supposed to be fixing the problem with us and trying to make it so we could be friends and he was NEVER calling me and now I know it's because he had some other hooker to occupy his time. Anyway, I found out on Day 1 and he told me the "truth" and promised he'd make it up to me...we literally fought for two hours about how he lied about her. He told me he had ended it days before, that he barely talked to her...etc etc. The NEXT day...DAY 2, I was talking to him online and just feeling paranoid and asked him again if he sees her or talks to her a lot and he said "No i understand your paranoia but I haven't seen her in forever."........Right after he signed offline he went to her dorm to show her his new dog. He called me, what must have been right after he left, and said "I'm sorry I was short with you online but i really want you to know that I care and I'm going to fix this" UMMMM YA.....said that knowing he had just seen her and neglected to fill me in on that. Later that night her facebook status went to "in a relationship" and I FREAKED out. If you had "ended things" then why the fuck is she in a relationship. SO I call him and we get in another huge fight b/c it turns out he had not only NOT ended things "yet" but then admitted to going to see her that day to show her the dog. He also admitted that he was ending things b/c she was getting way more serious than he did and that she had been calling him her boyfriend and he hadn't stopped her. I FREAKED THE FUCK OUT. He had lied about sooo much in a matter of three days.. I couldn't believe it. He called her and ended things with her the next day and changed her status back to single and actually told a mutual friend (who she doesn't know is mutual and def tried to get the scoop for me) that she thinks he is still hooked on his ex and that's why he ended things with her. So that made me feel good knowing he had actually ended things but at the same time... I WANTED TO RING HIS NECK. I couldn't believe that every night I'd cry to him about how bad I felt and he would sit there and just beg for me to forgive him and say he felt miserable for lying and he would do anything to fix it so we could still be friends yada fucking yada.......and each night he'd be lying about something else. I GET the whole "I'm lying to protect your feelings" thing, SURE, I've done it before too.... but jesus...when I bust you three times in a row, give it up dude...stop the charade. He was trying to pacify the situation b/c he knew he had the intention of ending it so he was going to say he ended it before he actually did..etc etc. but I just couldn't believe it. I did nothing to deserve all the lies and now it's put us in a SUPER rough position. Unfortunately, for whatever reason, I love this kid. If he's not going to be my boyfriend then I want him to be in my life as a friend and so I'm stuck. How do I trust him? How do I learn to trust him without driving him insane by asking so many questions....? It's soooo complicated and totally 100% obnoxious.
THEN.....to top ALL of this off. The girl he was dating and broke up with...FUCKING TRIED TO ADD ME AS HER FACEBOOK FRIEND...AFTER he broke up with her!! HAHAHA! Then when I asked who she was (even though I knew) she tried to play it off that she thought I was a high school friend of hers. PSH! THEN all I said was "I think you must know my name b/c we both know Matt Thompson." and she proceeded to write me THREE seperate emails (two of which were sent within 1 minute of eachother) basically just saying "Oh ya, I dated Matt for two months" or "I dated Matt, that's why I know who you are" or "Matt never mentionedme, weird? We dated for two months" UMMMMM....I FUCKING GET IT! WHat's weird though.......they only knew eachother for 37 days.....how could you date someone before you had even met them?! Psycho. FInally her emails got so annoying that I said "ya, Matt never mentioned you I'm sure b/c compared to the 5 years of history that he and I have, a month is hardly worth mentioning or remembering. I'm glad you guys are still friends" and just ended it. But get this, keeping in mind she sent me 3 emails bragging about dating Matt...two of which I NEVER responded to.....and SHE called Matt and said I was being rude to her?!?!?!!? Umm....bitch, don't email me incessantly about dating the boy I still love and expect me to be all peaches and cream. Psycho. He told her he didn't want to talk to her about it and that I was kinda right...that after 5 years I had a right to talk anyway I wanted to someone and that she had no right to be emailing me in the first place. Long story short.... I think she's fucking INSANE!
That has been occupying my time for the past two weeks or so. I can't believe the whole situation. Whatfuckingever. Last weekend I went to Indy for Alex's birthday which was fun for sure but I was a little annoyed bc I paid in full for a hotel for TWO nights b/c he told me that they were going to be going out both nights.....and then on Saturday at 9pm he calls to tell me they're jus going to stay in and watch movies. I was so pissed.. I mean, it's not his fault everyone kinda bailed but whatever... I paid IN FULL for a hotel so now I'm out $120. Ew. I drove home b/c there was no point in me staying there to watch a movie, especially when I had to wake up early anyway to be at my family party.
I also started my "fall" babysitting schedule. It is ROUGH. Granted, I only work 4 days but 2 of those 4 days I am babysitting from 8:30am-6:30pm for three seperate families. THere is no down time at all. It's hard. Kids are efing exhausting. I don't think I'll ever want to have one hahaha.
I don't know.. I think that's it. I'm gonna try to make sure my next entry is less angry ;)
THEN.....to top ALL of this off. The girl he was dating and broke up with...FUCKING TRIED TO ADD ME AS HER FACEBOOK FRIEND...AFTER he broke up with her!! HAHAHA! Then when I asked who she was (even though I knew) she tried to play it off that she thought I was a high school friend of hers. PSH! THEN all I said was "I think you must know my name b/c we both know Matt Thompson." and she proceeded to write me THREE seperate emails (two of which were sent within 1 minute of eachother) basically just saying "Oh ya, I dated Matt for two months" or "I dated Matt, that's why I know who you are" or "Matt never mentionedme, weird? We dated for two months" UMMMMM....I FUCKING GET IT! WHat's weird though.......they only knew eachother for 37 days.....how could you date someone before you had even met them?! Psycho. FInally her emails got so annoying that I said "ya, Matt never mentioned you I'm sure b/c compared to the 5 years of history that he and I have, a month is hardly worth mentioning or remembering. I'm glad you guys are still friends" and just ended it. But get this, keeping in mind she sent me 3 emails bragging about dating Matt...two of which I NEVER responded to.....and SHE called Matt and said I was being rude to her?!?!?!!? Umm....bitch, don't email me incessantly about dating the boy I still love and expect me to be all peaches and cream. Psycho. He told her he didn't want to talk to her about it and that I was kinda right...that after 5 years I had a right to talk anyway I wanted to someone and that she had no right to be emailing me in the first place. Long story short.... I think she's fucking INSANE!
That has been occupying my time for the past two weeks or so. I can't believe the whole situation. Whatfuckingever. Last weekend I went to Indy for Alex's birthday which was fun for sure but I was a little annoyed bc I paid in full for a hotel for TWO nights b/c he told me that they were going to be going out both nights.....and then on Saturday at 9pm he calls to tell me they're jus going to stay in and watch movies. I was so pissed.. I mean, it's not his fault everyone kinda bailed but whatever... I paid IN FULL for a hotel so now I'm out $120. Ew. I drove home b/c there was no point in me staying there to watch a movie, especially when I had to wake up early anyway to be at my family party.
I also started my "fall" babysitting schedule. It is ROUGH. Granted, I only work 4 days but 2 of those 4 days I am babysitting from 8:30am-6:30pm for three seperate families. THere is no down time at all. It's hard. Kids are efing exhausting. I don't think I'll ever want to have one hahaha.
I don't know.. I think that's it. I'm gonna try to make sure my next entry is less angry ;)