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I'm a little annoyed b/c I'm supposed to start my "fall schedule" for babysitting this week and I have spent over a month working it all out. Susie, one of my super regulars, told me she wanted Tuesdays so I made sure she had that whole day to herself and now I think she might be bailing on me. She was writing me a check one day and we were talking about scheduling etc and she said to herself "shit, thats the only day he doesnt work" which makes me think her husband has Tuesdays off (he's a doctor) and that she won't be needing me on Tuesdays...which means I'm EASILY out $40 or more. Ew. She hasn't called me all day so I guess I'm not going there tomorrow but we'll see if she calls tomorrow to explain herself. This really sucks. Barf.
Matt and I got in a fight late last night, maybe I'll write a private entry about it later. Long story short, he lied again, nothing "too" major, but still a big deal and still very hurtful. I just wish I was able to let go, but how do you let go of someone you care about so much? Matt and I will be just friends probably forever but losing him as a friend would be just as devastating as it was to lose him as a boyfriend. I guess it wasn't even a fight so much as me yelling at him for hurting me again but it ended up being a good conversation and I think things will be okay but I just don't know how I will ever learn to trust him. I wish he knew what it felt like to lay in bed at night and wonder if the past 5 years were a total lie...or to run over memories and wonder if he was telling the truth or being sincere. It's awful.
This weekend was fun. On Saturday I went downtown shopping by myself and got my makeup done at the MAC counter in Nordstrom. It turned out okay but I kinda think this girl was a little dumb and I def had to fix things once I left. Oh well. After that I went to a bakery and got Erin cupcakes for her bday and then headed over to her apartment to get ready. We got to John Barleycorn around 9:15 and partied until around 12 but Er had a rough night b/c most of the people we came with got kicked out for one reason or another so she wanted to leave early. I was fine with going home but i was def having fun and wished I could have stayed longer. Oh well. It was a good time and I'm soo glad I went.
Next weekend is Alex's birthday in Indy and I'm going to have to get him something.....I hate gift shopping lol. BUT he is moving into a new apt so maybe I could get him a housewarming gift or something. I'm so sick of getting people liquor for their bdays. Yuck. Hmm...what else???? Nothing major....nothing exciting. I really need to start focusing on school and my applications but it's been so hard b/c so many of my good friends have birthdays coming up and I'm not ready to be totally absent from their lives....I'll save that for when I'm back in school. Yikes.
Alright. peace.
Matt and I got in a fight late last night, maybe I'll write a private entry about it later. Long story short, he lied again, nothing "too" major, but still a big deal and still very hurtful. I just wish I was able to let go, but how do you let go of someone you care about so much? Matt and I will be just friends probably forever but losing him as a friend would be just as devastating as it was to lose him as a boyfriend. I guess it wasn't even a fight so much as me yelling at him for hurting me again but it ended up being a good conversation and I think things will be okay but I just don't know how I will ever learn to trust him. I wish he knew what it felt like to lay in bed at night and wonder if the past 5 years were a total lie...or to run over memories and wonder if he was telling the truth or being sincere. It's awful.
This weekend was fun. On Saturday I went downtown shopping by myself and got my makeup done at the MAC counter in Nordstrom. It turned out okay but I kinda think this girl was a little dumb and I def had to fix things once I left. Oh well. After that I went to a bakery and got Erin cupcakes for her bday and then headed over to her apartment to get ready. We got to John Barleycorn around 9:15 and partied until around 12 but Er had a rough night b/c most of the people we came with got kicked out for one reason or another so she wanted to leave early. I was fine with going home but i was def having fun and wished I could have stayed longer. Oh well. It was a good time and I'm soo glad I went.
Next weekend is Alex's birthday in Indy and I'm going to have to get him something.....I hate gift shopping lol. BUT he is moving into a new apt so maybe I could get him a housewarming gift or something. I'm so sick of getting people liquor for their bdays. Yuck. Hmm...what else???? Nothing major....nothing exciting. I really need to start focusing on school and my applications but it's been so hard b/c so many of my good friends have birthdays coming up and I'm not ready to be totally absent from their lives....I'll save that for when I'm back in school. Yikes.
Alright. peace.