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I know it's shabbis but I need to write this down so that I stop freaking out.
I went to R. Chaim's for shabbat which was wonderful, but I drove from the valley to get there. When coming back home I went along this dark street to get to the freeway and saw a guy and a girl walking on the side of the road. The guy was standing arms width behind the girl with the edge of his arm on her shoulder. That's an odd position! The guy standing with his arm straight out to touch the girls shoulder? Walking like that? I was driving by and only saw them when my headlights hit them as I drove passed, but it looked so suspicious that I hit the breaks and almost stopped right then and there. But I was also scared that he might have a gun or something behind the girls back and if I stopped I could endanger myself as well. So I called 911 and my damn cell phone cut me off. So I called again and was on hold for like 3 minutes!! It's because if you're on a cell phone they answer you later because most cell phone calls end up being to report an accident. So I finally get through to someone to report this suspicious incident and they transfer me to LAPD and I tell them and then get cut off again!
It was kinda dangerous to be fooling around with my phone on the freeway so I decided I'd look up the UCLA police dept on the comp when I got home to call them and let them know (since it was the block over from UCLA). All the way home I was freaking out and trying not to cry or go into frustrated hysterics bc getting into an accident wouldnt help anyone.
But I couldnt help thinking how long it'd been since I saw them, and what if something happened to that girl and no one even knew bc it is on a pitch black street and I kept getting cut off when I reported it. And by the time I got home and called would it be too late? I was almost shaking as I got into the house and went for the comp and only felt better once I'd completely reported it. But I was in a car and I didnt recognize the guy's ethnicity, or hair color, or what they were wearing! God I hope something bad doesnt happen to that girl.
It just felt so wrong. No one walks like that, especially on a pitch black street like that. If a guy and girl are out alone on a dark, little traversed street, they're usually next to each other, or with their arms around each other, talking maybe... But not walking silently, with the guy behind the girl and his arm on her shoulder (with the arm straight!) Not unless he's blind and is following her, but then I doubt she would be stupid enough to be walking him along such a deserted street. Everything felt wrong. And now I'm kinda jittery. I'm scared, and I'm home alone bc my parents are out of town and my brother is at a friends house (why I was at Hillel). And I wish someone else was here with me!
In the spirit of me being able to sleep and not crying out of fear being here alone... it may be irrational but everytime the floor creaks I jump and I'm scared right now and on the verge of tears. So in the spirit of me being able to sleep I think I'll watch some cartoons or something or try to find something uplifting to make me less... "jittery".
I think my hands are shaking.
I wish it wasnt shabbis so I could call half of my friends for support. I really dont want to be here alone.
I went to R. Chaim's for shabbat which was wonderful, but I drove from the valley to get there. When coming back home I went along this dark street to get to the freeway and saw a guy and a girl walking on the side of the road. The guy was standing arms width behind the girl with the edge of his arm on her shoulder. That's an odd position! The guy standing with his arm straight out to touch the girls shoulder? Walking like that? I was driving by and only saw them when my headlights hit them as I drove passed, but it looked so suspicious that I hit the breaks and almost stopped right then and there. But I was also scared that he might have a gun or something behind the girls back and if I stopped I could endanger myself as well. So I called 911 and my damn cell phone cut me off. So I called again and was on hold for like 3 minutes!! It's because if you're on a cell phone they answer you later because most cell phone calls end up being to report an accident. So I finally get through to someone to report this suspicious incident and they transfer me to LAPD and I tell them and then get cut off again!
It was kinda dangerous to be fooling around with my phone on the freeway so I decided I'd look up the UCLA police dept on the comp when I got home to call them and let them know (since it was the block over from UCLA). All the way home I was freaking out and trying not to cry or go into frustrated hysterics bc getting into an accident wouldnt help anyone.
But I couldnt help thinking how long it'd been since I saw them, and what if something happened to that girl and no one even knew bc it is on a pitch black street and I kept getting cut off when I reported it. And by the time I got home and called would it be too late? I was almost shaking as I got into the house and went for the comp and only felt better once I'd completely reported it. But I was in a car and I didnt recognize the guy's ethnicity, or hair color, or what they were wearing! God I hope something bad doesnt happen to that girl.
It just felt so wrong. No one walks like that, especially on a pitch black street like that. If a guy and girl are out alone on a dark, little traversed street, they're usually next to each other, or with their arms around each other, talking maybe... But not walking silently, with the guy behind the girl and his arm on her shoulder (with the arm straight!) Not unless he's blind and is following her, but then I doubt she would be stupid enough to be walking him along such a deserted street. Everything felt wrong. And now I'm kinda jittery. I'm scared, and I'm home alone bc my parents are out of town and my brother is at a friends house (why I was at Hillel). And I wish someone else was here with me!
In the spirit of me being able to sleep and not crying out of fear being here alone... it may be irrational but everytime the floor creaks I jump and I'm scared right now and on the verge of tears. So in the spirit of me being able to sleep I think I'll watch some cartoons or something or try to find something uplifting to make me less... "jittery".
I think my hands are shaking.
I wish it wasnt shabbis so I could call half of my friends for support. I really dont want to be here alone.