Mittelschmerz...
I feel tired and crampy and I kinda feel like I'm having mittelschmerz, which is ovulation pain. But... I shouldn't be ovulating. I'm so confused. But yeah... Even according to my period app, I should be in the fertile period via cycle dates. But like I said, I shouldn't be ovulating. Ugh...
I guess it's related. Was listening to Catholic Answers and they had a doctor on talking bioethics, etc. And someone called about alternatives to hormonal therapy for his wife who is going through perimenopause. The response was sadly the first thing doctors do is prescribe birth control. Um... That was last resort for me. And it's not even that I'm in a Catholic health system. My first GYN... At that point it was just observation b/c it was a one time thing. I didn't bleed heavily again / more regularly till a few years later. I went to a... Random gyn (as in not CHS affiliated) and at that point I was over the age where BC was contradicted. The first line was a D&C. But I didn't have anything done b/c I was stubborn. And then this last GYN... I only became his patient b/c he was the doctor that saw me in the ER. His office is a private practice, but he's affiliated with the CHS. Like... He has all these posters on contraception, etc. He's a practicing Jew so... Who knows what his stance is. But... Like I said, his first choice wasn't pills. If anything, I just wanted a pill to stop the bleed. But nope. D&C. Myomectomy and... Because I kept bleeding last resort is the pill. That rando GYN did offer a IUD. I probably wouldn't do that. But my current MD, nope. My high risk MD, well the fellow said it was an option as well, but since it's a Catholic hospital they couldn't do it there. So... Maybe that's why Dr. D didn't offer it? So yeah... I wasn't buying their "doctors are throwing pills at everyone we need alternatives". But they did say there was some study where woman who are on birth control, their taste in men changes, so if you're in a relationship and start birth control there is a chance you can no longer be attracted to your partner. Have I noticed a change in attraction? Lol. I've heard of people suddenly ovulating when they see someone attractive. LOL!
Anyway, started today off as usual. Fr. I's vid was about caring for you body, but more importantly your soul. Going to confession. I mean, yeah, I'm grateful for him hearing my confession, but seriously... The power of God is so tangible to me after confession. I don't even know how to correctly express it. I just commented, "I love a good Soul Scrub!" Part of me feels wrong in thinking... Confession is my favorite sacrament. And I think in the beginning Fr. I thought I was being scrupulous. I hope he realizes now I'm just trying to grow in holiness. He gave me 7 Hail Marys!!!
I don't remember what started my thoughts... But I was thinking how the cousins in Queens grew up with the Aunts as... I was gonna write an alternative. But I'll say support aside from their parents. Then Jennie had the Aunts too. I hesitated a bit for me and 7500centfish, but then I thought... We had Grandma and Grandpa. Like I legit have more memories of Grandma dressing me / watching me. Not that my parents were horrible and neglective (neglecting?). Yeah, I don't know why that popped into my mind, nor if I really have a point to it.
Coincidently... Lea Salonga posted this vid, Disney Christmas ad. OMG crying!!! I have to rewatch, but I don't feel like crying right now, but I think I saw giant utensils in the background. LOL!!!
This week's Catholic Talk Show was about The 5 Worst Things about being a Priest. Not a comment on the content really, but I found it funny... Part of the whole priests only work 1 day a week... They mention they eat everyone's pasta all week. HAHAHA!!! But another thing that caught my attention was one of them knew a pastor who I guess they did a study of the parish, like what percentage of the parishioners gave x amount. I'd like to see something like that in my church. I keep saying average is $10 per family. I think they used to announce the attendance and the weekly collection so I did the math. But... Like a few people will give a huge amount, a lot of people give a smaller amount. Many don't give anything. So... I'd like to see that curve.
Thinking of what to get the girls this Christmas. When I bought my next daily spiritual read book, I saw an advert about Catholic scientists which is good for kids. But... It might be too big of a read for the girls? I think Aaliyah (cc takyttik82) is in the 1st grade? I think the oldest is 9 already? Once again... Do I get A/A the same book? Different books? Ugh... Then what of my own Godson? I'm such a failure...
I don't want to write about my other notes right now. It's about the covid vaccine and The McCarrick Report.
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Mom talked to a doctor friend, but he couldn't say much w/o specifics. I don't know... At the end of the day... Do we really need to know the specifics? I mean... The MD in me is always curious, but at the end of the day we're not the one making the decisions. I mean, if X wants advice... I think Mom needs to hear from her doctors first hand and not though X.
Random interlude... Watching a Matt Fradd vid on this Catholic speaker's conversion story. I'm not a normal Matt Fradd listener, but... I just feel like there is a covert... Like there is a trend in catholic social media to steer people toward... Not orthodoxy... I mean, even the most "liberal" should be orthodox in teaching or you're teaching heresy. Like... She's talking about the first Mass she went to wasn't very reverent. Then Matt Fradd goes to Divine Liturgy in an Eastern church. Then there is the whole TLM. Like I said... I can appreciate Latin Mass and tradition, but... It irks me when people put down the "Novus ordo". I need to stop calling it Novus ordo, b/c they use it as a slur. At the end of the day... Your pastor should have more affect on your salvation than anyone on youtube or the Pope.
Twitter, etc.
I keep accidentally favoring things, but am too embarrassed to unfave them.
This makes me miss Broadway...
I guess it's related. Was listening to Catholic Answers and they had a doctor on talking bioethics, etc. And someone called about alternatives to hormonal therapy for his wife who is going through perimenopause. The response was sadly the first thing doctors do is prescribe birth control. Um... That was last resort for me. And it's not even that I'm in a Catholic health system. My first GYN... At that point it was just observation b/c it was a one time thing. I didn't bleed heavily again / more regularly till a few years later. I went to a... Random gyn (as in not CHS affiliated) and at that point I was over the age where BC was contradicted. The first line was a D&C. But I didn't have anything done b/c I was stubborn. And then this last GYN... I only became his patient b/c he was the doctor that saw me in the ER. His office is a private practice, but he's affiliated with the CHS. Like... He has all these posters on contraception, etc. He's a practicing Jew so... Who knows what his stance is. But... Like I said, his first choice wasn't pills. If anything, I just wanted a pill to stop the bleed. But nope. D&C. Myomectomy and... Because I kept bleeding last resort is the pill. That rando GYN did offer a IUD. I probably wouldn't do that. But my current MD, nope. My high risk MD, well the fellow said it was an option as well, but since it's a Catholic hospital they couldn't do it there. So... Maybe that's why Dr. D didn't offer it? So yeah... I wasn't buying their "doctors are throwing pills at everyone we need alternatives". But they did say there was some study where woman who are on birth control, their taste in men changes, so if you're in a relationship and start birth control there is a chance you can no longer be attracted to your partner. Have I noticed a change in attraction? Lol. I've heard of people suddenly ovulating when they see someone attractive. LOL!
Anyway, started today off as usual. Fr. I's vid was about caring for you body, but more importantly your soul. Going to confession. I mean, yeah, I'm grateful for him hearing my confession, but seriously... The power of God is so tangible to me after confession. I don't even know how to correctly express it. I just commented, "I love a good Soul Scrub!" Part of me feels wrong in thinking... Confession is my favorite sacrament. And I think in the beginning Fr. I thought I was being scrupulous. I hope he realizes now I'm just trying to grow in holiness. He gave me 7 Hail Marys!!!
I don't remember what started my thoughts... But I was thinking how the cousins in Queens grew up with the Aunts as... I was gonna write an alternative. But I'll say support aside from their parents. Then Jennie had the Aunts too. I hesitated a bit for me and 7500centfish, but then I thought... We had Grandma and Grandpa. Like I legit have more memories of Grandma dressing me / watching me. Not that my parents were horrible and neglective (neglecting?). Yeah, I don't know why that popped into my mind, nor if I really have a point to it.
Coincidently... Lea Salonga posted this vid, Disney Christmas ad. OMG crying!!! I have to rewatch, but I don't feel like crying right now, but I think I saw giant utensils in the background. LOL!!!
This week's Catholic Talk Show was about The 5 Worst Things about being a Priest. Not a comment on the content really, but I found it funny... Part of the whole priests only work 1 day a week... They mention they eat everyone's pasta all week. HAHAHA!!! But another thing that caught my attention was one of them knew a pastor who I guess they did a study of the parish, like what percentage of the parishioners gave x amount. I'd like to see something like that in my church. I keep saying average is $10 per family. I think they used to announce the attendance and the weekly collection so I did the math. But... Like a few people will give a huge amount, a lot of people give a smaller amount. Many don't give anything. So... I'd like to see that curve.
Thinking of what to get the girls this Christmas. When I bought my next daily spiritual read book, I saw an advert about Catholic scientists which is good for kids. But... It might be too big of a read for the girls? I think Aaliyah (cc takyttik82) is in the 1st grade? I think the oldest is 9 already? Once again... Do I get A/A the same book? Different books? Ugh... Then what of my own Godson? I'm such a failure...
I don't want to write about my other notes right now. It's about the covid vaccine and The McCarrick Report.
Text.
Mom talked to a doctor friend, but he couldn't say much w/o specifics. I don't know... At the end of the day... Do we really need to know the specifics? I mean... The MD in me is always curious, but at the end of the day we're not the one making the decisions. I mean, if X wants advice... I think Mom needs to hear from her doctors first hand and not though X.
Random interlude... Watching a Matt Fradd vid on this Catholic speaker's conversion story. I'm not a normal Matt Fradd listener, but... I just feel like there is a covert... Like there is a trend in catholic social media to steer people toward... Not orthodoxy... I mean, even the most "liberal" should be orthodox in teaching or you're teaching heresy. Like... She's talking about the first Mass she went to wasn't very reverent. Then Matt Fradd goes to Divine Liturgy in an Eastern church. Then there is the whole TLM. Like I said... I can appreciate Latin Mass and tradition, but... It irks me when people put down the "Novus ordo". I need to stop calling it Novus ordo, b/c they use it as a slur. At the end of the day... Your pastor should have more affect on your salvation than anyone on youtube or the Pope.
Twitter, etc.