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i just got back from church and i have to work in a few hours.this is something i recently talked to 2 of my best friends about.but i really dont wanna date while i am in high school.and i know i am not gonna look back on my life 10 years down the road and regret it.i feel this way bc i dont wanna give anymore of my heart to one person that doesnt deserve it.i havent gone thru ne kinda of massive break up or argument with a girl recently so dont think this is me speaking out of anger.this is just some another entry on me reflecting on my life and how i have grown up.i constantly watch my friends go through horrible relationships,and heard them talk and sometimes cry their eyes out to me on how they wish they didnt make those mistakes,and i learn from them telling me their expieriences.high school is sooo much more tehn just a learning expieriece.thats actuallly the smallest reason we go.its a place for u to kinda learn about who u are.what and who u like and dont like.its just kinda like "well i am here now since my parents are making me go so i better find a guy/girl here for me to spend this year with until summer comes again".im so glad that i havent dated ne one that went to my school at all this year bc i dont feel like something is holding me back from the things i want to do.its ok for me to have multiple friends that are girls w/o a girlfriend to feel like its something more then that.dont get me wrong here tho.i am definetly attracted to the opposite sex w/o a doubt,i just dont feel like i have met ne one worth me giving my heart to.bc if i date then i dont wanna just make out with this attractive person that seems to like me.i wanna give more of myself to them and i am NOT talking about sex.im am talking about i wanna give them my heart,my time,my thoughts,dreams,and let them be a part of my life.i know that sounds a little serious of me but wtf, i mean i am about to graduate this year.games about to be over.high school so far has been awesomo bc i have learned so much about myself and God has used me so many times.i just think that high school is a horrible time to have a serious relationship with someone bc barely ne one is ever serious.i have expierienced it for a fact too.i think i am just gonna wait till college starts.dare me?watch me not date another girl for a year and a half.i am not knocking people who are dating currently.......maybe this is just my way of saying just about EVERY girl at my school is completely stupid.i think that may be it.no one there serious enough for me to give my heart to bc they all wanna go out to get drunk and high and wonder who had sex with them the previous night.ha...these crazy kids....NO SERIOUSLY...i really think alot of these kids are crazy!!!