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just to let everyone know ahead of time,this is a journal entry typed outa my anger.alright.i noramlly dont ever have drama ever in my life.but whenever i do, u can best belive a girl is behind it.surprisingly enuff,that is the case right now.....this girls friend is the problem i am talking about.this is the second time this kid has gone off to one of the girls i have liked and just told her stuff about me to make me look like a jerk.when it all honesty,hes the jerk.i hate arguments and i hate them even more when people feel like they are superior over a computer monitor.computer arguments are stupid and completely immature.i tried to back out of the stupid arugment by being like "look,i need to be having this conversation with her,not u"but he keeps on going.i know he was trying to be a friend for her,but hes done enuff talking for one lifetime on this one.amd i would appreciate it if he doesnt talk to me again.the first time i ever had ne bad feelings about this kid was earlier this year with my ex gf chrystal.when me and her broke up,i still liked alot but i couldnt stand to hear her name around me and know that shouldnt be together.he aims me i tell him some crap outa anger which is my fault..but i trusted the kid when i told him not to tell her.and he did.i was so angry at him.i wanted to yell at him for days!!but i forgave him.i let it all go.thats not of God at all to hold things in.so here we go all over again.i like a girl that moved and we made a agreement to keep in touch but theres been a communication problem on the account that she told me her phone doesnt get service there...but shes been talking to every person in the world on this phone but me?i have tried myspacing her twice and she hasnt returned ne thing.i was on a guilt trip for days bc she thought i was ignoring her.but noticing by how much of my heart i put into the message and didnt hear a word from her back shows how i could easlily turn that around and say that she ignoring me.but she will return a message when she hears that i dont wanna date ne one till next year after college.i am gonna justify that entry right now bc thats what it is.MINE!!i dont need ne one telling me how wrong i am about my thoughts.i have respectfully spoken my mind on this thing and i never asked for ne ones opinions on them.if u can look and see,i dont have ne friends on my livejournal.thats bc half of those kids were commenting on my journal and didnt even know me.i wrote that entry as my way of saying that high school dating is completely stupid to me.it has never worked for me in the past and the only time i have ever been stressed out about ne thing most of the time is when it was involving a girl.i dont know what God has planned for me at all and me interfering with his plan by making a promise that i am not guarenteed to keep is not very mature on my part.theres alot that i have to say that i could type but i am not gonna do that crap over a computer.this person......u know who u are...and i need to have a talkl when she gets back bc i think both of us are really confused right now.and i am sure that she has alot to say.and as for her friend...i was about to block him again but ive gotten a little smaarter since last time to know that when u are mad at people,u dont just stop talking to them.u wait to u cool down from being mad and then u repsectfully adress them about the matter.and thats what i am gonna do.just know that me and u have a talk coming our way as well...just not over a computer moniter.im done with this entry but and i am gonna disable my comment board to prevent ne one from making me mad with ne of thier rude comments about this.plus that stresses this situation even more that if u have something to say to me,u say it to me...unlless sitting behind a computer moniter makes u think ur so much harder and more feared then everyone else....