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I was digging through my room looking for money when I found a card, from my birthday, Sep 25, 2003. Its from Jessica. Reading it again put a smile on my face, making me realize that after all the crap with me and her, and now me and Kyley... I know that I'm still a good person.
"John, Happy Birthday babe! Yeah, I know this isnt a birthday card but i liked it. I dont even know where to start. I love you, plain and simple. I cant believe weve come this far. Its so awesome to look back on how things were when we first hung out. I had no idea what i was saying when i told you id never let you go. I never realized how true those words were. I know that what we have isnt something everyone experiences and i am so thankful for every moment i get to spend with you. You have made my life so awesome. I always have something to look forward to, you are my motivation. I never thought i couldve become the person youve encouraged me to be. Someone who stands up for what they believe. Thank you John, thank you for being there for me unconditionally. Its so easy to lose sight of things like that. Thank you for making me a better person and loving me regardless. Baby, I love you so much. Like you said about our relationship, coming to a fork in the road...i agree. And i wanna be with you the whole way, i believe in us. I know im saying a whole lot right now but i mean every word of it. I love you for everything you are and everything youve made us and I always will. Love Always - Jessica"
... theres a reason shes my best friend. Maybe now you all see it. Reading things like this make me realize that I was there for the people ive cared about when they needed me most. Id like to share a letter or card from Kyley too, but I think I gave all them back to her when we broke up (a little bitter at the time? yeah, id say so) There are a few people in my life who I love unconditionally and will ALWAYS be there for. Alexis, Jessica, and Kyley. All of whom Ive shared more than my fair share of drama and bullshit with... but love, irregardless. So, amidst all the drama, money issues, and just personal crap I'm going through... i know ill be ok. No one will ever change me, I'm proud to be who i am.
Oh, and Jess... this card put a smile on my face when I forgot what a smile was. Thank you. I love you to death, I'll always be here for you. 3-17-03 <3
"John, Happy Birthday babe! Yeah, I know this isnt a birthday card but i liked it. I dont even know where to start. I love you, plain and simple. I cant believe weve come this far. Its so awesome to look back on how things were when we first hung out. I had no idea what i was saying when i told you id never let you go. I never realized how true those words were. I know that what we have isnt something everyone experiences and i am so thankful for every moment i get to spend with you. You have made my life so awesome. I always have something to look forward to, you are my motivation. I never thought i couldve become the person youve encouraged me to be. Someone who stands up for what they believe. Thank you John, thank you for being there for me unconditionally. Its so easy to lose sight of things like that. Thank you for making me a better person and loving me regardless. Baby, I love you so much. Like you said about our relationship, coming to a fork in the road...i agree. And i wanna be with you the whole way, i believe in us. I know im saying a whole lot right now but i mean every word of it. I love you for everything you are and everything youve made us and I always will. Love Always - Jessica"
... theres a reason shes my best friend. Maybe now you all see it. Reading things like this make me realize that I was there for the people ive cared about when they needed me most. Id like to share a letter or card from Kyley too, but I think I gave all them back to her when we broke up (a little bitter at the time? yeah, id say so) There are a few people in my life who I love unconditionally and will ALWAYS be there for. Alexis, Jessica, and Kyley. All of whom Ive shared more than my fair share of drama and bullshit with... but love, irregardless. So, amidst all the drama, money issues, and just personal crap I'm going through... i know ill be ok. No one will ever change me, I'm proud to be who i am.
Oh, and Jess... this card put a smile on my face when I forgot what a smile was. Thank you. I love you to death, I'll always be here for you. 3-17-03 <3