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I'm sick of the immaturity. Thats so typical, trying to make me feel like I didnt make her happy, like she always wanted out. Im not gonna play those games, she made me pretty happy. To be honest, no where near as happy as Kyley makes me, but ive avoided saying so, because I dont seek to tear Jessica down, or scar anything shes done for me. Its tough, its more of a struggle than I ever imagined... trying to fight and make a decision. Its so hard to walk away, but so hard to keep fighting for a friendship with someone who wants pride, and the feeling that she did nothing wrong and everything was my fault. She wants reassurance that SHE was right. She wasnt, and neither am I... we BOTH screwed up, we BOTH failed each other on numerous occasions... WHICH IS WHY WE ARENT TOGETHER ANYMORE! So we werent "meant to be" or whatever, fine. Im ok with "us" being over, but I dont want it all to be for nothing. I just want my friend back.
Im just happy that I have Kyley to keep me sane... shes been wonderful with all of this. Shes obviously envious of how close Jessica and I were, and she wishes she knew me as well as Jess does, but she never inserts her opinion in the wrong places and times. She remains unbiased, and only trying to be the voice of reason. All the while, doing her best to put a smile on my face. I always write more about Jessica than Kyley, but thats just cuz I have nothing to complain about. I could some up Kyley in one sentence...
The most amazingly wonderful girl I've ever met, much less had the fortune to have as a major part of my life.
Workin for 11 days straight, last Monday through this Thursday. Tired.
Im just happy that I have Kyley to keep me sane... shes been wonderful with all of this. Shes obviously envious of how close Jessica and I were, and she wishes she knew me as well as Jess does, but she never inserts her opinion in the wrong places and times. She remains unbiased, and only trying to be the voice of reason. All the while, doing her best to put a smile on my face. I always write more about Jessica than Kyley, but thats just cuz I have nothing to complain about. I could some up Kyley in one sentence...
The most amazingly wonderful girl I've ever met, much less had the fortune to have as a major part of my life.
Workin for 11 days straight, last Monday through this Thursday. Tired.