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Ok... so I hate to admit it, but I'm a little upset about Jessica drifting. I always wanted her as a friend, but she doesnt want to be a friend I guess. Its all head games, bullshit, little comments, and excuses. Kyley put it perfectly last night, "I dont understand you, you tell her not to call you, then YOU talk to her." It made me realize how much I dont want the time Jessica and I spent together to end up being for nothing. I at least wanted to have some kind of friendship, or something. But, its becoming damn near impossible. Im ok with that though. Its not something I can control. Im happy with my life right now. Working hard, wonderful girlfriend who suprises me with new ways she can make me happy every day. I love her so much... Shes everything Ive ever wanted... and some.