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For about two weeks now, I've been looking for a job. I simply can not work at a law firm any longer. The only problem I'm having...finding a job that I would love to do. How does one come to this conclusion? Do people just wake up one day and proclaim "Yes! I want to do....."
Point being, I'm welcoming suggestions from those reading. In what field should Ryry search?
Over the past two weeks, I've sought after jobs concerning impoverished children, which I know that I would enjoy, but have little background experience. Yeah, I've taught children for two years in the various slums of new york city, but how does that lend itself to being a program assistant for a child welfare organization? I mean, of course I could use that experience as a catalyst for my current employment wants, but it seems like organizations in NYC don't care. They seek individuals with specific experience in their particular field. Well, how in the hell is one suppposed to acquire experience if no one is willing to offer the intial one? What's worse, I feel like such employment is sparse. Taking a suggestion of Anna's to heart, I researched organizations dedicated to providing children with a better quality of life. After phoning each of these organizations I learned that
A.) No openings are available
B.) Such organizations have little to no turnover
C.) I will never be happily employed
I'm probably going to apply to the nyc teaching fellows and teach special ed. Why? Who the hell knows. It sounds enjoyable...spending my time with autistic children. at least they'll always be honest. the only problem is that I'm contractually obligated to remain in said position for three years, workign towards an Masters in Education. Well, what about the Master's program that I'm already in? Could I do both? I figure that I could take four classes over the summer to make up for the one, maybe two classes a semester that I would be able to take. Should I just abandon this dream? Is it foolish to get two MAs and then apply for a PhD program? I am so fucked.
Seriously though, any suggestions? My ears are open. Should I continue questing to help kids, or is that just my middle class guilt driving me? Does my priviledged childhood warrant me spending the rest of my life making amends for my father's earning power? This whole system of employment is a joke. You either select a job that you like and live in poverty for most of your life (shout out to assistant editor heller), or you acquiece to the demands of past generations and lose yourself in the corporate world. Let's see, would I rather have mental vitality or mental HIV. My current job, like the human immuno-virus, is slowly killing me because I forgot to buy protection (valid internships) in college. So, I was relegated to be an audit manager's bitch, formatting and reviewing legal documents ALL FUCKING DAY LONG! What's awful, is that even my boss hates this work, but he pulls in $150,000 annually, so he feels complacent about it all. Is money that important? I have become accustomed to various priviledges throughout my life. Am I willing to abandon them? Granted, I would be making about $12,000 more if I taught in an NYC school, so I suppose I won't be live in absolute poverty. AH! FUCK IT!
SOMEONE, help! Guide me! Give me a suggestion!
On a brighter note, to tori shows this weekend. it really irritates me when people attribute my frequenting of her shows to my being queer. Look, most fags go to their local tori show, donning a home-made t-shirt with a salacious line from 'Professional Widow' adorning the front. I go to shows aroudn the country by myself, looking like shit. My time at her shows is amazing and have granted me moments of pure happiness. So, leave me alone.
No, don't leave me alone. Fucking help me!
Point being, I'm welcoming suggestions from those reading. In what field should Ryry search?
Over the past two weeks, I've sought after jobs concerning impoverished children, which I know that I would enjoy, but have little background experience. Yeah, I've taught children for two years in the various slums of new york city, but how does that lend itself to being a program assistant for a child welfare organization? I mean, of course I could use that experience as a catalyst for my current employment wants, but it seems like organizations in NYC don't care. They seek individuals with specific experience in their particular field. Well, how in the hell is one suppposed to acquire experience if no one is willing to offer the intial one? What's worse, I feel like such employment is sparse. Taking a suggestion of Anna's to heart, I researched organizations dedicated to providing children with a better quality of life. After phoning each of these organizations I learned that
A.) No openings are available
B.) Such organizations have little to no turnover
C.) I will never be happily employed
I'm probably going to apply to the nyc teaching fellows and teach special ed. Why? Who the hell knows. It sounds enjoyable...spending my time with autistic children. at least they'll always be honest. the only problem is that I'm contractually obligated to remain in said position for three years, workign towards an Masters in Education. Well, what about the Master's program that I'm already in? Could I do both? I figure that I could take four classes over the summer to make up for the one, maybe two classes a semester that I would be able to take. Should I just abandon this dream? Is it foolish to get two MAs and then apply for a PhD program? I am so fucked.
Seriously though, any suggestions? My ears are open. Should I continue questing to help kids, or is that just my middle class guilt driving me? Does my priviledged childhood warrant me spending the rest of my life making amends for my father's earning power? This whole system of employment is a joke. You either select a job that you like and live in poverty for most of your life (shout out to assistant editor heller), or you acquiece to the demands of past generations and lose yourself in the corporate world. Let's see, would I rather have mental vitality or mental HIV. My current job, like the human immuno-virus, is slowly killing me because I forgot to buy protection (valid internships) in college. So, I was relegated to be an audit manager's bitch, formatting and reviewing legal documents ALL FUCKING DAY LONG! What's awful, is that even my boss hates this work, but he pulls in $150,000 annually, so he feels complacent about it all. Is money that important? I have become accustomed to various priviledges throughout my life. Am I willing to abandon them? Granted, I would be making about $12,000 more if I taught in an NYC school, so I suppose I won't be live in absolute poverty. AH! FUCK IT!
SOMEONE, help! Guide me! Give me a suggestion!
On a brighter note, to tori shows this weekend. it really irritates me when people attribute my frequenting of her shows to my being queer. Look, most fags go to their local tori show, donning a home-made t-shirt with a salacious line from 'Professional Widow' adorning the front. I go to shows aroudn the country by myself, looking like shit. My time at her shows is amazing and have granted me moments of pure happiness. So, leave me alone.
No, don't leave me alone. Fucking help me!