how hard it was
I dont think any one knows how hard today was for me i ignored her all day till last period then i was just an asshole :-( what i wish i wasnt i dont mean to be mean its just so hard to look at her and like hold in what im hiding. Its like i know what i feel but when u have to deny it cuz the other one doesnt feel the same kills you and repeating stabbing my heart its like a little demon running loose doing what it pleases cause i cant stop it. I wish for you and thats all i care for..why cant she see this, will something ever hit her?...im def worth a change just to have you thats all i want RIGHT NOW.
To what extent do i have to change just so that someone that i actually like will they go out with me. Is it my looks?..i mean i know im ugly but. Is it my Personality? come give me some kind of hint. it was just so hard today to actually look at her. im sitting there going whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, i just want to turn back time change what i could at that time and do what i could not to be such a god damn retard!! I just wanna drop out i cant take this emotion stress. I cant take all this bullshit at school. I want a rebirth i cant live like this no more. I cant tell you how much i hate this.
To what can i do to make you change your mind? I need to talk to my mom too. I need anger management. Im just so afraid of all the people that i will be with that i might be there to save my life. I dont think that im that bad, but maybe we will see what happens i guess it might be for the best for me. Its up to my mom, i guess.
Disturbed- Numb
Bleeding now I'm
Crying out I'm
Falling down and I'm
Feeling nothing like
Laughing now I'm
Stopping now I'm
Reaching out and I'm
Feeling nothing
Yeah, you have created a rift within me
Now there have been several complications
That have left me feeling nothing
I might say, you were wrong to take it from me
Left me feeling nothing
Crawling now I'm
Beaten down I'm
Tortured now and I'm
Feeling nothing like
Hunting now I'm
Stalking now I'm
Reaching out and I'm
Killing nothing
I can feel you ripping and teaching
Feeding and growing inside of me
I want this, more than you know
I need this, give it back to me
Qoute - It's cool to hate
I don't like nothing and I like that fine
(Liking something's just a waste of time)
Yeah I hate everything
I even hate you too
So fuck you
Later , Ryan (im so lost its not funny) :(
To what extent do i have to change just so that someone that i actually like will they go out with me. Is it my looks?..i mean i know im ugly but. Is it my Personality? come give me some kind of hint. it was just so hard today to actually look at her. im sitting there going whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, i just want to turn back time change what i could at that time and do what i could not to be such a god damn retard!! I just wanna drop out i cant take this emotion stress. I cant take all this bullshit at school. I want a rebirth i cant live like this no more. I cant tell you how much i hate this.
To what can i do to make you change your mind? I need to talk to my mom too. I need anger management. Im just so afraid of all the people that i will be with that i might be there to save my life. I dont think that im that bad, but maybe we will see what happens i guess it might be for the best for me. Its up to my mom, i guess.
Disturbed- Numb
Bleeding now I'm
Crying out I'm
Falling down and I'm
Feeling nothing like
Laughing now I'm
Stopping now I'm
Reaching out and I'm
Feeling nothing
Yeah, you have created a rift within me
Now there have been several complications
That have left me feeling nothing
I might say, you were wrong to take it from me
Left me feeling nothing
Crawling now I'm
Beaten down I'm
Tortured now and I'm
Feeling nothing like
Hunting now I'm
Stalking now I'm
Reaching out and I'm
Killing nothing
I can feel you ripping and teaching
Feeding and growing inside of me
I want this, more than you know
I need this, give it back to me
Qoute - It's cool to hate
I don't like nothing and I like that fine
(Liking something's just a waste of time)
Yeah I hate everything
I even hate you too
So fuck you
Later , Ryan (im so lost its not funny) :(