why does my life blow so bad...
This life sucks i want a new one...i cant stand myself, why am i like this i cant get over how much that it blows...i cant do ne thing right i cant have any success in my life once something goes the way i want it to for once i blows me in the face saying "go fuck urself ryan, u can never be happy" i guess i should just give up on it all, i swear this shit is ruining my life, i really show myself im open but i cant take how i shut people out..i want to start over i cant stand how i can be like this, i sincerly need anger management, i need a anti depression course...i need something some sort of light that can get me through this and you know what i just cant find it so i give up. I give it all up, no more bull shit, im not gunna do anything with my life im not going to let anyone get close to me, ive been by myself most of my rigid life i guess thats the way that im going to have to end it, no sees what i want or what im looking for, when i know what im looking for im am going to be persistant..but when they push you away its like why and when they tell you the stupidest peice of shit answers...it tends to get on my nerves because they are hiding something and i dont want people to hide things with me...i here to change i cant change myself without knowing what was the problem and what to do to change it i do need a little guidance...i cant do all this shit by myself. Im so like willing to do things that someone wouldnt...my maturity level is to high at where i am today i dont want it to be like this but when u have nothing else in ur life except to be by yourself you to get more mature and knowing of what you want and how bad you want it is like indescribable but guess what its to fucking advance that i cant because im to go for all these shit...i never going to show my feelings to anyone else i could careless if i dropped dead..i actually might be more happier and have less shit to worry about...i love many things but when u push it away you dont know what the hell you are missing...i cant get over this...i will never be the same from these occurances. i have officially said that I GIVE UP FOR THE FINAL AND LAST TIME never again.
I don't know anything at all and I'm somebody else
It could take years to find you, it could take years to find myself
And I don't need to hear your answer I just need you to see
That I think it's time to break down these walls that we throw
Am I still breathing have I lost that feeling
Am I made of glass 'cause you see right through me
I don't know who I am and you're the only one who sees that
I can't ask these questions that cannot be answered today
And even if everything goes wrong and we start to fall apart
I will understand where you are, I will understand this by myself
And I don't need to hear your answer I just need you to feel
Like there are no boundaries at all
And how far have we come, too far to throw away the past
Will you be there waiting for me
I have to ask what we are, if I ask today it just won't last
So I'll be here waiting for you
Will we ever feel this good again - Not today
Will we ever feel this real
again - Not today
Will you ever be mine again - Not today
Will we ever feel this real again - Not today
Quote- "if god were suddenly condemned the life that he has inflicted on me then he would kill himself"
"END MY MISERY" :-(
I don't know anything at all and I'm somebody else
It could take years to find you, it could take years to find myself
And I don't need to hear your answer I just need you to see
That I think it's time to break down these walls that we throw
Am I still breathing have I lost that feeling
Am I made of glass 'cause you see right through me
I don't know who I am and you're the only one who sees that
I can't ask these questions that cannot be answered today
And even if everything goes wrong and we start to fall apart
I will understand where you are, I will understand this by myself
And I don't need to hear your answer I just need you to feel
Like there are no boundaries at all
And how far have we come, too far to throw away the past
Will you be there waiting for me
I have to ask what we are, if I ask today it just won't last
So I'll be here waiting for you
Will we ever feel this good again - Not today
Will we ever feel this real
again - Not today
Will you ever be mine again - Not today
Will we ever feel this real again - Not today
Quote- "if god were suddenly condemned the life that he has inflicted on me then he would kill himself"
"END MY MISERY" :-(