pieces
bits
a puzzle
shards
everywhere
how do they fit together again?
when did it all fall apart?
or did it?

wine
red
blood
thick

smoke

surrounds
intoxicates

thoughts
strike
fangs
drink

red
wine

i'm wandering
confused
whirling flecks of snow
bite at my face
such wind
pushing pulling
desire of fear
weakness is my strength
why is it winter?

i recently visited the ocean
it all fades from my mind when i'm back onto the land, but ...
i am so very hypnotized by the water
the smells, the sounds, the taste
the arcs, the crashing, the undulating
the waves pull me out towards the horizon with such a strong call
i wonder that we all haven't walked back into the oceans yet

i hear the breeze move the leaves outside my window as we talk of change
i imagine that breezes journey
is it like mine?
have we crossed paths before?
swirling, racing
pools and eddies
i am my own journey
yet not
sweetly entangled
forever crossing paths

dripping
through the cracks
down down
drip drip
red
what color is frustration?
confused spinning
reeling

after the downpour
will come the beginings of growth ...
the first tender bits of green
popping up in the cold early spring
it is time for change
the world and my soul have said so

it's cold here again .... it's cold in the office ... i was cold when i woke up ( Read more... )

i feel odd lately
stuck in limbo
so much change
it all stays the same
i understand the why now
but i still don't feel different
i function different
clouded
pathless
lost?
maybe i need to be my own muse
for my own path
i am me

surreal
real
sir
surrey
...with the fringe on top?
fringe
frig
floof
fling
fly
away
awash
brainwash
brilliant
light
longing
leap

really?
surreal