A diversionary post
I've been a bit down today. I'm not entirely sure why, I've got some theories, but I don't feel like dwelling on them. I thought I would come and write about something that cheers me up. So I'm going to tell about my weight loss.
At my most pregnant with Michael, I weighed 285 pounds. At that time, I probably would not have told you that. Imagine. Almost 300 pounds. I realize I was 9 months pregnant. But that's a lot. I gained 35 pounds with him, 20 of which was in the last month or two. After I gave birth (I don't know....you "give birth" when it's a C-Section? Or do we have brith given to us?) to Michael, I pretty easily and quickly lost 20 pounds. Of course, half of that was baby and amniotic fluid (my doctor expressed surprise at the amount of amniotic fluid, and he's been doing this for 25 years). After that, I lost 15 more, again, fairly quickly.
Then it started coming back.
When I reached 262.4 pounds, I decided I needed to change. My habits, my life, my body, my self. I'm tired of being depressed because of my weight. A voice in my head, that voice, I finally started listening to it, that voice that has been whispering for so, so long, that if you are so unhappy about it, change it. Also, I want to be healthy. For me, for Austin, but mostly for Michael. He didn't ask to be born to a 45 year old mother, and I owe it to him to be as healthy as I can for as long as I can.
Also? It feels really, really good. I know, a lot of it is endorphins after exercising. But it feels really, really good.
So I started the Slim Fast and WiiFit. I started doing the shake at breakfast and dinner, but then would snack at dinner time too. So I elimated the evening shake and ate healthy (mostly) light snacks. I liked the balance, because it still felt like food so I didn't feel the need to eat again. Then I did 30-60 minutes of exercise on the WiiFit after Michael went to sleep, and then relaxed until Austin got home. Napped, frequently. And lots and lots of water.
Now that Austin is home at night, we fix dinner and eat together, all three of us, as a family. It's wonderful, actually. So, I have a shake for lunch, my powdered shake in my coffee for breakfast, and lots of water. But the exercise had been thrown off. It's hard to exercise with Austin home, at night, somehow. I seem to be much more tired, and I just feel like spending my time with him instead of on the WiiFit. So I have now started exercising at 5 a.m. I'm usually awake anyhow, and so I figured I may as well get up and exercise. Michael is an early, early riser, but if I am lucky, I can get some exercise in and get to read for a few minutes with my coffee. Once he wakes up, he usually wants to dance for 10 or 15 minutes, so I get more exercise in with him. I love that part.
The mix of exercise isn't as good. I used to do a routine that was yoga/strength training on Mondays and Wednesdays, aerobic Tuesday and Thursday, and whatever I felt like Friday. Now, I am still trying to work out my new rhythm, but so far I do a few yoga stretches to get my muscles awake, and then something aerobic. Or, I choose some areas to work on and let the WiiFit pick the exercises.
I like it better in the morning. I'm not fighting with having eaten all day, I feel like I get a more honest measurement of what my weight is from day to day. Also, it's been a more steady decline, so see, which I definitely going to prefer that! My weight this morning was 205.
205 pounds. To date, I have lost 57.4 pounds. I think about that when I hold Michael. He weighs about 27 pounds. I have lost over twice that much. That much weight that I used to carry around every moment of every day.
I would like to be under 200 by Christmas, I'm not sure I will make that but that's what I am shooting for.
My goal is 160. The WiiFit tells me 124, but I don't think I agree with that. I think that 160 might be a good place to hover, a place where I can loose 5 or gain 5 and still be okay. I'll see when I get there.
This has brought so much tangential good to my life. I have found so much support on facebook, and I love walking with my Mom. It has given me a way to connect with my eldest sister, and I cherish that. I feel like I have found comraderie everywhere. It's a warm, happy, energetic feeling. It's like...basking in a puddle of sunshine...then charging off to chase a bug.
I was right. This did help me feel better.
At my most pregnant with Michael, I weighed 285 pounds. At that time, I probably would not have told you that. Imagine. Almost 300 pounds. I realize I was 9 months pregnant. But that's a lot. I gained 35 pounds with him, 20 of which was in the last month or two. After I gave birth (I don't know....you "give birth" when it's a C-Section? Or do we have brith given to us?) to Michael, I pretty easily and quickly lost 20 pounds. Of course, half of that was baby and amniotic fluid (my doctor expressed surprise at the amount of amniotic fluid, and he's been doing this for 25 years). After that, I lost 15 more, again, fairly quickly.
Then it started coming back.
When I reached 262.4 pounds, I decided I needed to change. My habits, my life, my body, my self. I'm tired of being depressed because of my weight. A voice in my head, that voice, I finally started listening to it, that voice that has been whispering for so, so long, that if you are so unhappy about it, change it. Also, I want to be healthy. For me, for Austin, but mostly for Michael. He didn't ask to be born to a 45 year old mother, and I owe it to him to be as healthy as I can for as long as I can.
Also? It feels really, really good. I know, a lot of it is endorphins after exercising. But it feels really, really good.
So I started the Slim Fast and WiiFit. I started doing the shake at breakfast and dinner, but then would snack at dinner time too. So I elimated the evening shake and ate healthy (mostly) light snacks. I liked the balance, because it still felt like food so I didn't feel the need to eat again. Then I did 30-60 minutes of exercise on the WiiFit after Michael went to sleep, and then relaxed until Austin got home. Napped, frequently. And lots and lots of water.
Now that Austin is home at night, we fix dinner and eat together, all three of us, as a family. It's wonderful, actually. So, I have a shake for lunch, my powdered shake in my coffee for breakfast, and lots of water. But the exercise had been thrown off. It's hard to exercise with Austin home, at night, somehow. I seem to be much more tired, and I just feel like spending my time with him instead of on the WiiFit. So I have now started exercising at 5 a.m. I'm usually awake anyhow, and so I figured I may as well get up and exercise. Michael is an early, early riser, but if I am lucky, I can get some exercise in and get to read for a few minutes with my coffee. Once he wakes up, he usually wants to dance for 10 or 15 minutes, so I get more exercise in with him. I love that part.
The mix of exercise isn't as good. I used to do a routine that was yoga/strength training on Mondays and Wednesdays, aerobic Tuesday and Thursday, and whatever I felt like Friday. Now, I am still trying to work out my new rhythm, but so far I do a few yoga stretches to get my muscles awake, and then something aerobic. Or, I choose some areas to work on and let the WiiFit pick the exercises.
I like it better in the morning. I'm not fighting with having eaten all day, I feel like I get a more honest measurement of what my weight is from day to day. Also, it's been a more steady decline, so see, which I definitely going to prefer that! My weight this morning was 205.
205 pounds. To date, I have lost 57.4 pounds. I think about that when I hold Michael. He weighs about 27 pounds. I have lost over twice that much. That much weight that I used to carry around every moment of every day.
I would like to be under 200 by Christmas, I'm not sure I will make that but that's what I am shooting for.
My goal is 160. The WiiFit tells me 124, but I don't think I agree with that. I think that 160 might be a good place to hover, a place where I can loose 5 or gain 5 and still be okay. I'll see when I get there.
This has brought so much tangential good to my life. I have found so much support on facebook, and I love walking with my Mom. It has given me a way to connect with my eldest sister, and I cherish that. I feel like I have found comraderie everywhere. It's a warm, happy, energetic feeling. It's like...basking in a puddle of sunshine...then charging off to chase a bug.
I was right. This did help me feel better.