well, nevermind, maybe. i'm starting to somehow just feel super confused how this person who i thought was so great and good maybe is not so much. maybe he's just a person, someone i met, someone i didn't know and wasn't supposed to. makes me question my judgment seeing as i thought he was the bees knees for so long ( Read more... )

“Boring damned people. All over the earth. Propagating more boring damned people. What a horror show. The earth swarmed with them.” -Charles Bukowski

Does anyone ever become obsessed with sushi for weeks at a time, then get pretty grossed out, then go back to being obsessed a few months later? It's quite a cycle. However, upon investigation I learned that as long as I do not eat white albacore or shark or shellfish or farm raised fish excessively, mercury/toxin poisoning is much less of a ( Read more... )

Whose friend are you really, aderall?

today i told my landlord my mom died, and that's why my sister is living with me. i even cried. is that bad karma?

I'm finally completely done with my program. The time has inevitably come to find a corresponding job. I'm not particularly worried for no good reason. I'm overwhelmed by the feeling that everything is going to work out ( Read more... )

The late winter is always pretty rough for me. I pretty much have not gotten out of bed all week except for my internship, and even then I found a way out of going on wednesday (which was totally irresponsible). I guess I have an expressive/decisive behavioral style, a conflicting combo that generally prevents me from dealing with emotions/ ( Read more... )

Kevin made me try a 'roast beef' sandwich, which is something very popular to consume in new england. i've never had roast beef because 1) my mom never cooked red meat and 2) i fucking hate red meat. kevin repeatedly insisted i NEEDED to try this pile of garbage and it was the only thing he would agree to. i wanted a waffle. so gross ( Read more... )

Anyone who happens upon this entry, feel free to thoughtfully reply to this question. I'm looking for all the responses I can get.

What do you want to do while you're on earth? I mean, nothing you think you've got to do, or feel pressured to do, but stuff you actually WANT from life? Be as long winded as you like.

ssoooo. i started my internship in the gynecologic oncology department at tufts (new england medical) last week. we also have a couple ob/gyn and uro/gyn clinics during the week as well. there are a few attending physicians, but mostly residents. one attending is sort of abrasive and cold, and the other one is nice and willing to teach me things ( Read more... )