Crushing Gaze

[insepid]

So I've kept my last 24 hours as busy as possible to avoid this terrible feeling that lurks in my lazy self-destruction. I'm glad I'm up and doing shit but I still feel as if I were to stop moving before a moment from sleep I would fall desperately into a spiral of confusion and isolation. Its been like this for a week but today and yesterday

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[rayna_sabine]

You know I've been wondering if you've gone to Evvie. I sometimes see someone who might be you, but I'm not sure and then I try to get a better look but they are gone. Probably creeped out by the weird goth girl staring at them. LOL. I'm the only tallish, short black haired, glasses wearin, goth girl there. So yeah. Say hi sometime, eh? LOL. I've met my makin' an ass of myself quota for Feb. And I figured that if it wasn't you the person would be insulted if I asked them if they were Insepid. LOL.

[insepid]

Haha I think I will be there next friday. If you see me stare then it will alert me to stare back and then we can make mutual asses of ourselves.

Oh heh whats with the creepy middle aged men sprinkled throughout the dancefloor near the riser? :)

I was looking for you though (passivly ofcourse). So you are the only tall short hair goth girl? Damn I think I look like everyone else there at the moment because the only clothes I brought here were my job huntin clothes.

[rayna_sabine]

There's one guy there who's especially weird. He has glasses and a bald spot and dances with a lot of energy to all the fast songs. If you watch during "the Sickness" by Disturbed he's the one who always crouches down when they sing down. My friend Mariella was counting how many times he did it during the song, got to 17 and then some guy hit on her and she lost count. How dare he? Doesn't he know she's doing important scientific reseach? LOL.

I may be late comin' on Friday as my friends' band is playin at the Cambie (Self Inflicted), and we're all going, but will be there later. 11-12 ish. I'll wear black. LOL!!!

[insepid]

oh then it should be easy to find you then! I usually dont leave to go out till 11 anyways but then i find out the bars here cloise at 2!!!!!!!

[xfistfight]

[haven't talked to you in a while...]
yay for keeping busy. keeps the mind sprinting forward rather than dwelling on the bullshit.