Crushing Gaze
So I've kept my last 24 hours as busy as possible to avoid this terrible feeling that lurks in my lazy self-destruction. I'm glad I'm up and doing shit but I still feel as if I were to stop moving before a moment from sleep I would fall desperately into a spiral of confusion and isolation. Its been like this for a week but today and yesterday have really helped in scaring it off.
Yesterday and today:
-went out to drop my bike off to get the crank replaced
-met up with Sarah
-picked up an Ontario birth certificate form (again!)
-had lunch at the noodle box (tariaki tofu and lime)
-bought a swim pass for the month
-went for a swim (my attempt at starting a work out schedule)
-came home and started to bake a cake
-woke up to cake (mmmm chocolate)
-walked downtown to pick up the bike
-talked to triple_barrel on the phone (it was so good to hear her voice)
-talked to spinninglikea45 on the phone to make plans to go to Vancouver on monday and rock the fuck out with a Toronto friend (I miss all of you so much *thats so sounds cheesy*)
-found where to rent ski equipment for this weekend... If I happen to go this weekend
-biked around checking out stores and places I hadn't been yet
-came home and typed this entry
-will go out to do a lot more before the day is done hopefully its only 3:30 here
My ulterior motive to going to Vancouver is to not only party with Ashley but to see the girl I really miss. Next week promises to be pretty rad if I keep this pace and motivation.
Yesterday and today:
-went out to drop my bike off to get the crank replaced
-met up with Sarah
-picked up an Ontario birth certificate form (again!)
-had lunch at the noodle box (tariaki tofu and lime)
-bought a swim pass for the month
-went for a swim (my attempt at starting a work out schedule)
-came home and started to bake a cake
-woke up to cake (mmmm chocolate)
-walked downtown to pick up the bike
-talked to triple_barrel on the phone (it was so good to hear her voice)
-talked to spinninglikea45 on the phone to make plans to go to Vancouver on monday and rock the fuck out with a Toronto friend (I miss all of you so much *thats so sounds cheesy*)
-found where to rent ski equipment for this weekend... If I happen to go this weekend
-biked around checking out stores and places I hadn't been yet
-came home and typed this entry
-will go out to do a lot more before the day is done hopefully its only 3:30 here
My ulterior motive to going to Vancouver is to not only party with Ashley but to see the girl I really miss. Next week promises to be pretty rad if I keep this pace and motivation.