It's A Lie.
i could say in a voice that completely belies the underlying tension, that i am prepared for this paper, but i would be lying. i lie everyday.
"honey, you say this all the time, for every paper. :p ... good luck."
i recall with perfectly clarity when i received the text, and still do. so many lovely memories that still comes to mind every now and then, although it is usually accompanied with a bittersweet smile now. i miss you occasionally. nothing new there.
i am scared.
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i had a dream last night- of being introduced to a family who were happy to meet me, and very warm and accepting of someone they barely knew. do you know that it's an amazing feeling to be liked so easily? i wish my parents would be more understanding of my faults and wrongdoings. i'm rather afraid of the confession i'm going to have to make seven days from now.
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as always with stress, i'm finding reasons to spend money. but whoa, it's almost as if luck is on my side suddenly! everything's been tempting me to spend money; what with all the recent sales everywhere. too much, these people, too much.
confession for the day: i am so tempted to buy four sets right now. /hides self.
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nine more days to go. gotta really stick to the plan now.
"honey, you say this all the time, for every paper. :p ... good luck."
i recall with perfectly clarity when i received the text, and still do. so many lovely memories that still comes to mind every now and then, although it is usually accompanied with a bittersweet smile now. i miss you occasionally. nothing new there.
i am scared.
--
i had a dream last night- of being introduced to a family who were happy to meet me, and very warm and accepting of someone they barely knew. do you know that it's an amazing feeling to be liked so easily? i wish my parents would be more understanding of my faults and wrongdoings. i'm rather afraid of the confession i'm going to have to make seven days from now.
--
as always with stress, i'm finding reasons to spend money. but whoa, it's almost as if luck is on my side suddenly! everything's been tempting me to spend money; what with all the recent sales everywhere. too much, these people, too much.
confession for the day: i am so tempted to buy four sets right now. /hides self.
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nine more days to go. gotta really stick to the plan now.