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I keep on watching what I say and post over the net so as to not hurt you. I tried so many things today to keep my mind from thinking of you but to no avail. No movie, series, food or ice cream can take my mind of you. In fact some of them made it worse. I was watching Julie and Julia somewhere in the evening just now and julie's husband was so nice to her and she was so polite to him. It made me think of how I wish I could have done/ handled things better with him. Then at least both of us will be happy with each other. Hm, and I was watching Glee early this afternoon and Rachel Berry and Puck were covering the song by Lady Antebellum, Need You Now, GODD!! It made me feel so damn freaking horrible I wish I could just have myself running into his arms. But I knew that it is impossible. :'\
I just read his twitter and his post went on about my past broken promises. It tears me apart. Why bring up such things when you told me you dont wanna look back? I wish that you wouldnt go back there cause I had my fair share but I shrug them off cause I love you that much that it all doesnt matter to me. Sometimes I know you break your promises cause I made a mistake. That's why I dont say anything and let you off. I wish sometimes I am perfect for you. So flawless that you dont even have to think about me making a mistake. We'd live like the character's in the movie Pleasant Ville. Then again, that would make me a robot or atleast like the women in the movie The Stafford's Wives. I don't wish to be that. I wish to be the girl whom you'd share your laughters and sadness with, whom you'd take the roller coaster with and have random picnics almost anywhere and everywhere we want, play catch and run around with. I want to be your Hayley, or Avril or Megan Fox and in return i just need you.
I know you haven't been acknowledging me for 2 whole days. Yesterday night was a horrible night for me cause I couldn't sleep and my head hurts from all the crying but I managed to force myself to get some shut eye all thanks to your hoodie. Im getting abit dependent on your hoodie now everytime we fight. It calms me down for some reason. Maybe because it emits the same warmth you have when you put me to sleep. I miss you already. Please come back or even if you don't, please just acknowledge me cause I am so clueless now about you. I hate to think of stupid things that might happen between us but I just cant help it. Tonight I don't know how I will take it. It's eating me up from the inside and it really hurts this time round.
Im taking all the blame. Just dont walk out on me just like that.
I remember you having my face in your palms, you said," dont you ever leave me okay?"
<3
I just read his twitter and his post went on about my past broken promises. It tears me apart. Why bring up such things when you told me you dont wanna look back? I wish that you wouldnt go back there cause I had my fair share but I shrug them off cause I love you that much that it all doesnt matter to me. Sometimes I know you break your promises cause I made a mistake. That's why I dont say anything and let you off. I wish sometimes I am perfect for you. So flawless that you dont even have to think about me making a mistake. We'd live like the character's in the movie Pleasant Ville. Then again, that would make me a robot or atleast like the women in the movie The Stafford's Wives. I don't wish to be that. I wish to be the girl whom you'd share your laughters and sadness with, whom you'd take the roller coaster with and have random picnics almost anywhere and everywhere we want, play catch and run around with. I want to be your Hayley, or Avril or Megan Fox and in return i just need you.
I know you haven't been acknowledging me for 2 whole days. Yesterday night was a horrible night for me cause I couldn't sleep and my head hurts from all the crying but I managed to force myself to get some shut eye all thanks to your hoodie. Im getting abit dependent on your hoodie now everytime we fight. It calms me down for some reason. Maybe because it emits the same warmth you have when you put me to sleep. I miss you already. Please come back or even if you don't, please just acknowledge me cause I am so clueless now about you. I hate to think of stupid things that might happen between us but I just cant help it. Tonight I don't know how I will take it. It's eating me up from the inside and it really hurts this time round.
Im taking all the blame. Just dont walk out on me just like that.
I remember you having my face in your palms, you said," dont you ever leave me okay?"
<3