fuck step parents
he makes me want to run away. im always so pathetic and unworthy. im trashy, im expensive, im a smartass, im out of control..i am so many things to him..and he acts like im ruining his life. he has no idea what he does to mine. he screams at the television during the news, and during sporting events, even if we are all trying to sleep. he just doesnt care. im wrong, im always wrong. im such a worthless person. i hate myself enough, he makes it so much worse. all day, every day, whenever im around him, if only passing through whatever room he is in, he manages to say something, make some hateful comment about something, typically pertaining to me. the way i look, dress, my makeup, my personality, how much electricity i use up, how spoiled i am, how stupid i am. my beliefs are wrong. my style is wrong. i need to go to church. i need to respect him. i have weird pets, i need to not be so loud at night while he is trying to sleep. i need to be nicer to michelle. i need to be quieter in the mornings so i dont wake her up. i need to appreciate all the things he does for me..because there is really soooo fucking much. i would kill myself before i would thank him for anything less than ruining my life, or causing my suicide. i hate him so much. i wish he would go away. i wish he would go far, far away, and leave me alone. i wish he would die. i wish he would suffer unimaginable pain, for the pain he has caused me for so many years of my life. im always wrong.. its always something i fucked up. maybe i should just kill myself and give him what he wants. i hate him too much to do something to make him happy. i fucking hate him. what did i ever do..? im sure ive fucked up pretty bad a few times, but im pretty sure nobody deserves him..he makes me want to die. i hate him so much.