Why. Why can't I have a single good dream about my dad? Like, what is it that makes that impossible? This one was more weird that usual, but it was still shitty and he was still sick. I mean, he seemed like he was getting better? But he was in a wheelchair... And I don't know why I dream of him in a wheelchair, he never once sat in one ( Read more... )

I don't know why my brother not being able to fix my GODDAMN car spiralled me into such a horrid depression but I guess maybe I've just not been 100% lately. I have been buying myself a lot of things, and yet I haven't been excited for any of it. Maybe I've been depressed for a long time. Well, duh, I'm always depressed, that is the whole point of ( Read more... )

I wrote a huge long post, and felt there were too many words about how depressed I am and how much life likes to suck really hard when it wants to, but it all came down to how absolutely impossible it is to work with IBS ( Read more... )

I've been in a really weird mood. I've been so depressed about certain things in my life, and yet... Like, for example, I think about how depressed I am and how nobody really seems to care and then I think, well, I can't really blame them, can I? I'm depressed all the time! It's not like this is BIG NEWS. And what do I expect people to do for me? ( Read more... )

I deleted facebook today ( Read more... )

I honestly have no clue what I'm doing ( Read more... )

Why is it so FLIPPING hard to not be fucking offensive ( Read more... )

I was going to update sooner, but I've been in what my mother calls 'immovable depression'. Basically I laid in bed all day, either sleeping or staring at my computer screen, reading and not really doing anything ( Read more... )

LOL my brother said the most awesome thing to me just now ( Read more... )

My internet is down so I'm posting from my phoine, which is rather a pain... But I have a question: I really want to do stockings this year; partly because christmas shopping has helped me thusfar stay sane in the face of... Well, everything. And partly because that was my dad's favorite part about christmas, and I want to do it to feel close to ( Read more... )