"hard to live without optimism/hope, only doubt for the future ( Read more... )

Recently, my car has finally died; adding to my list of troubles this semester which has been the shittiest. I never see any actual 'permanent' improvement ( Read more... )

Nothing seems to go right...It's like if that "impending sense of doom" has been slowly and slowly becoming a reality with little hope that it will turn around. The melancholic decline since 2009 has only become worse on turning 21. Sometimes I just feel like a big failure and that the little inch of "building upon success" is in reality just a ( Read more... )

AHHH I feel so dismotivated, depressed, and lonely....

Fuck.

Although last night I had an interesting and happy dream that prominently featured one special guest for almost the entire dream it seemed (or at least this person was referenced multiple times in this dream). But I guess this dream only plays a role or is a symptom of what I feel now.