It's as if the universe has placed a death sentence on me since I was born

[indigoanonymous]

I think if you took time and read this stupid account of the life of a hopeless loser, you'll figure out that nothing gets better for this guy right here.

That's right, put it in perspective and I realize that life has been shit since a long time ago and if anything has gotten worse reaching new heights borderlining unbearableness.

Just think about it, even in those little "hopeful" moments it's all just wishful thinking and even in the "good" moments it evaporates like morning dew. For the life of me I cannot say that I ever experienced happiness that is not ephemeral except perhaps once and that too disappeared in the span of one month.

I'm not skinny enough, I'm probably annoying, and maybe just ugly and silly.
I'll probably never achieve or complete anything that I'll ever be proud of.

This realization, which has a life of its own, has only grown over the past recent years to the point that it screams to me nearly incessantly.
I'm weak.

Life seems like a bird cage.
If life had a will of its own it seems that it hates me and wants me to die.
All I want is to live
is to be happy

Denied