What's happiness?
I can say that yes I've experience happiness to some degree.
But usually, if not the vast majority of it, has been ephemeral happiness.
Happiness that arises out of the moment and leaves a while after.
I do not recall the last time I felt happy in a more "long-term sense" outside of just this one month in the past.
Today I thought to myself, "Well, what does anything (particularly those things that don't make you happy but are supposedly important in life, etc) matter if you're not happy?" It became a pervasive thought.
So, I decided to think: What does make me happy (in a long-term way)?
Here's what I think:
1)Being loved by somebody and being in love with somebody:
However, unrequited love doesn't make me happy, if anything it makes me unhappy, regretful, self-loathing.
2)Having a circle of friends...that see each other and does things at a more-or-less regular basis:
The last part is important, if not it makes no difference to my mood.
3)Being in an environment where things (events like concerts, etc) are happening almost daily, all one needs to do is go to them (and that going to them is not a problem, i.e. I have a car or public transport can take me there effectively):
Yeah, you mostly probably see this in city environments like NYC and perhaps certain kinds of campuses.
I realize that my life lacks all these 3 things. No one that I might like loves me, I think. I have a circle of friends, but I do not foresee at this point me seeing them regularly... Lastly, Fort Myers/FGCU is a dump and having no car makes it difficult to get anywhere.
Ugh, why
But usually, if not the vast majority of it, has been ephemeral happiness.
Happiness that arises out of the moment and leaves a while after.
I do not recall the last time I felt happy in a more "long-term sense" outside of just this one month in the past.
Today I thought to myself, "Well, what does anything (particularly those things that don't make you happy but are supposedly important in life, etc) matter if you're not happy?" It became a pervasive thought.
So, I decided to think: What does make me happy (in a long-term way)?
Here's what I think:
1)Being loved by somebody and being in love with somebody:
However, unrequited love doesn't make me happy, if anything it makes me unhappy, regretful, self-loathing.
2)Having a circle of friends...that see each other and does things at a more-or-less regular basis:
The last part is important, if not it makes no difference to my mood.
3)Being in an environment where things (events like concerts, etc) are happening almost daily, all one needs to do is go to them (and that going to them is not a problem, i.e. I have a car or public transport can take me there effectively):
Yeah, you mostly probably see this in city environments like NYC and perhaps certain kinds of campuses.
I realize that my life lacks all these 3 things. No one that I might like loves me, I think. I have a circle of friends, but I do not foresee at this point me seeing them regularly... Lastly, Fort Myers/FGCU is a dump and having no car makes it difficult to get anywhere.
Ugh, why