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May 04, 2006 13:15

so the last few days was a jessica trying to figure out how to deal with feeding a 72 year old woman her dinner. she got uncomfortable and ripped her wig off of her head. since i've been a little little child, i can never remember a time when my grandmother allowed anyone to see her without her wig on (sans my mother and i) and to see her just rip it off of her head in front of dustin and everyone else sort of jarred me in a way that made me feel like she was dead already. the whole thing just kills me. one step forward, two steps back i suppose.

dustin bought me an iPod which is pretty goddamn exciting, and today after work, i went to the mall to try to find a suitable cover, as not to scratch it to hell...no such luck. i was looking for something silver and tacky...you'd think that that kind of stuff would be plentiful in claire's, hot topic, etc. all of the stores with high priced, low quality, low class items. alas, the search goes on. **update from the the first time i drafted...i found a tacky silver cover...woot! not exactly right, but i think with a little creative sewing...i can make it spectacularly hideous.**

i'm sorry i haven't really responded to anyone's messages/calls/etc., this whole grandmother thing has put me in a funk that i can't seem to remove myself from. i don't know. things change...and nothing lasts forever...except for perhaps really hackneyed cliches like the one i just used. when she dies, there's no real reason to hold back from allowing the relationship with my mother and i to become what it really is, and i don't know what that is. i'm feeling exceptionally lonely, fat and weird. and poor, don't forget poor. like, hobo poor.

the good news, dustin and i are drawing a lot...and there's a myriad of really offensive and badly drawn cartoons that could soon make their way to the internet, that is, if i wasn't so lazy and actually scanned them on.

dustin received a summer pass to the andy warhol museum, the carnegie art and natural history museums and the carnegie science center for his birthday. woop! that'll be something that we can do together (for free) and he can also take his daughter too...for hella cheap. i've never actually been to the warhol museum, which makes me an insanely awful hipster. maybe they'll take my membership card away.

i should be doing 'partment things, but well...i've been up since the crack o', and i think that a nap is in order.

ms. erin justice...you've been on my mind these last few days...i hope that things with you are well.

...and garett, if you're reading...congratulations on boston...so awesome for you.
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